If you know me, you know I have a delicious sense of humor. You know that no matter how shitty life is, I still find reason to laugh. You have to understand that no matter how hard the rain pours, it will never drown my laughter. I possess a most beautiful gift from the Heavens: a sense of humor. As a baby, I had a belly deep laugh that made everybody smile. As a child, I was the class clown. I even had teachers roaring in laughter with my uncontrollable urge for being funny. I remember back in junior high how I used to torture my classmates. Naturally, I REGRET it... but it was entertaining to me. I am not by any means perfect. I have never and will never pretend to be so. Right now I am in a very difficult position awaiting the results to find out what is causing my health issues. It could be any number of things. I've been through more in my twenty eight years of life than most of you will ever go through. I am not stronger than you, but I am more in tune with wisdom and resilience because of all I've been through. I have fought long and hard for many years to survive all the obstacles that life has presented me with. Every day, we, as human beings... fight a war. The war is life and what pain it can cause you. My best advice to all of you is to choose your weapons carefully. Some of us choose alcohol. Some of us choose drugs. Some of us choose sex. Some of us choose artistic outlets. Some of us choose addictions of other kinds such as television, video games, talking on the phone, smoking, or surfing the internet. Given that I've been addicted to alcohol, drugs, television, video games, talking on the phone and smoking myself... I fully understand your need to disconnect from the real world. We all go through it, but we have to realize that life is something that is far too precious for us to waste away in addictions. I recommend you take the time to realize that you have more to live for. Life is bigger and better than addictions. So in this war we call life, I suggest you choose a weapon. My most valuable weapon of choice has and always will be my sense of humor. Following closely behind is my creativity. Mind you, I find this internet extravaganza to be my social outlet temporarily speaking while I readjust to society. Laughter will always get you through. It brings you to a place of happiness that sometimes we long for. I know in my heart if I did not have my sense of humor, I would not exist. Life would have been too much for me to handle. I never want to be a statistic. For what is currently happening in my life has made me realize that I am a fighter. You can never in a million years bring me down. I will not be victimized by pessimism. Optimism is the only air I breathe. I will laugh as my heart dances in joy of being alive. You know how to shoot a gun? If you do, that's wonderful. However, do you know how to overcome heartache? Do you know how to ease tension? Do you know how to relieve stress? Do you know how to make yourself smile? Do you know how to make a rainbow out of the rain? I have the best weapon for you, if you'd like to try it. Humor: my weapon of choice. Perhaps it should be yours as well. :) Laugh it off and be on your merry way on the road of life. I wish all of you the best in your journeys. Remember your weapons. ;)
