Seeing as I grew up in an abusive household, I took to drugs and alcohol at an early age. I was diagnosed as a depressive as a child, dysthermia was the term to be exact. I was diagnosed as Bipolar when I was in my teens. I was prescribed several medications on and off beginning at the age of nine. When I was about nineteen I came clean, got sober. With that, I also was prescribed Depakote to tame my Bipolar depression. However, I was never Bipolar. I was on Depakote up until the beginning of 2007. I developed Drug Induced Lupus from it. I nearly died. I could not walk, talk, and my heart stopped several times. I am lucky to be alive. My intuition told me it was Lupus, I SOMEHOW managed to research it on the computer to find that there was a medical condition called DRUG INDUCED LUPUS and that was in fact what I had. As a result of that medical condition, I LOST some of my memory and I also developed fibromyalgia. In addition to that I was on Wellbutrin. With Wellbutrin I lost both my short term and long term memories. I am learning something new about myself every day and it seems weird that the very medications that were meant to help me, harmed me. I was depressed on antidepressants. I am now depression free, but I am feeling very stuck. Because I feel stuck, I SOMETIMES feel a little lost. I have to gain back eight years I have lost... in some way, shape or form. I am not your typical person by any means, as many of you realize. I think I have a four leaf clover. So yeah... some of you wanted to know me better, and now I ask of you: do you want to know ME?
