Heartache, Why Do You Stay?
Love you,
Hate you....
REPEAT!!
Love you,
Hate you...
REPEAT!!
Tell me,
heartache,
why do you stay?
I loved you in my mind
for a very long time
before you even noticed
I was actually alive.
You held me in your arms
for such a short time,
loving my body,
denying my heart
and everything 'emotions'
would add to the sex.
Hate you,
love you.....
REPEAT!!
Hate you,
love you...
REPEAT!!
I never asked for anything
from you.
You never felt anything for me.
You needed an outlet,
and I opened mine
to please you,
hoping to make you feel
what you never would,
but what you swore you
held dear for another
while taking me in your bed.
DAMN,
heartache, why do you stay?
Love you?
Hate you?
Confused...
Confused.....
no emotions allowed...
no strings,
no ties,
just entwined bodies
drenched in lusty sweat
seeking release of pain
through each other....
but I couldn't hold to
the no emotions.....
Hate you, right?
No, love you.....
heartache,
why must you stay?
Don't you get it?
Without you,
I'd be whole?
I can't just be a nothing anymore,
a hole for you to screw with,
a place to put your frustration
while disregarding mine.
I can't deny my feelings,
can't pretend to just want sex,
can't just 'be in the moment'
until YOU decide the moment's gone!
Love you?
No, hate you....
stupid love!
Heartache,
please just go away...
why do you insist
in standing in my way?
Hate, Hate...
Love, Love....
why do both bring forth
so much passion?
Is there a reason
I must struggle within
myself with such
chaos?
And I sliced
into my skin today,
trying to bleed out
what was to come...
You didn't get to
make the decision afterall.
KARMA is a bitch,
and big sister, FATE
the avenger of the wronged....
and both stomped
their foot down on our secret,
imposing an end
to your lust,
my longing for your heart,
our bodies making memories
that should never have been ours.
Loving you....
Yep, love!
You'll be gone away soon,
displaced due to
your own actions,
or failure to act at all...
and I'll remain as I always was....
wishing I had NEVER met you,
never fallen for you,
never thought of you at all....
expecting no goodbyes,
no closure,
no nothing...
your specialty!
Heartache, why do you stay?
Because hate is painful....
and I DEFINITELY
HATE YOU
TODAY!!
~~Robin Dawn 'ChinaSwan' Palmer~~
December 15, 2009
By ChinaSwan
© 2009 ChinaSwan (All rights reserved)
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