CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Crushed and not the good way"

Ok now I must somehow learn to be positive or at least appear positive when my hunni is home. Yesterday was hard as heck on me, every little thing I would break down crying over. I know three months aint that long but yet, in my mind it feels like forever. This 3 months that I have been here in Germany I havent gotten to see him much, just on the weekends because of his work. I knew that and I understand that. I just wish we could have had alot more time together, I want to put into this relationship was he has done for me, but sadly at this time all I have to give him is my heart, and he already has that completely. I am so proud of him and all that he has accomplished these past 6 months. My Angel really is my life! I never thought that I could love like this, and it feels good to really truly be in love like this. I hate the pain though that comes with it, the pain of being away from him, the pain that I will have from not feeling his touch on the weekends, the pain of not looking into those eyes. Blah!