Pezz's blog: "Yea im here-"

Ya know what made me so mad earlier? I was at the local fireworks with a friend of mine and she was on her cell phone when the national anthem came on- the live band asked everyone to please stand for the national anthem... My friend just sat there on her cell phone like it was no big deal! Its a huge deal and I said no hang it up! its dissrespectful very disrespectful! I was sooooo pissed off and insulted! she personally knows a few men in the navy that are out to sea right now braving their lives for her freedom! the least she could do is hang up her freaking cell phone for 5 mins! I was so insulted... maybe its beucase I was a military wife? I was so angry infact i still am!

Im prolly looking too far into this, But i met somone. and sense no one major in my life is on here I dont care who reads this- Hia name is Ross hes 22 and lives about 50 mins away. Hes really cute and a total sweet heart- We talked on the phone lastnight about everything from cuddleing to goals in life even stores we shop at- He it a total sweet heart- I think im digging him- Ill keep ya posted tho :)

How come everyone has a man in tow for this weekend?! Even the people who arn't as cool as me?! Ugh its irritating! I want a man! im tired ofbeing single and being alone even for the past year when i was married i was alone i didnt get the things i needed in the relationship! Ug it makes me wanna cry O also everyone says u dont find a man when ur looking well-- people who are looking harder then I am find men in an instant! and Im alone I want to just sit here and cry for 3 days!

Yea im sitting here depressed out of my mind! -My dog has to go to a shlter today because my ex husbands moving and cant keep him any longer -im geting a divorce at 21 -i can't find a job and if i do i cant hold it for verry long! It just seems like nothings working in my life and im tired of it I cant take it any longer! My cousin who i love dearly is in jail and it sucks beucase shes the one i would clal when life got to be too much! Im such a week person and I want help I cant get through this on my owno feel hopeless and like theres no point to my life anymore- I cant do anything correctly the only time i am happy is when im doing somthing destructive on my body like drinking or somthing! I have to ask my dad to bring me to the hospital today so i can get some help and work on my life and get things together In a way i dont want to beucause then i would be admitting all my faults for all my family to see and recognise they already tell me i have issues and need help and i HATE admitting they are right! Ugh its a gonna be a long way to happy!

Will -Tell me im the most beautiful woman in the world -Is ok just going to a bar and having a few beers -Likes cuddleing on the couch during a movie -will leave it with just the movie no sex -but will try to make a move once and awhile- -will cook if I do the dishes -holds my hand in public -will come with me to a night club -has a job -has plans for the future -is emotionally supportive -is cute!! -is "all there" -has short term abitions -wants to get married in the future -open a door to the movies -open a car door -be open with me about their feelings and thoughts -doesnt mind if i pay for dinner -not complaine about my music -WHO LOVES ME FOR Me ~~~~~~ -has an exucation -will come with me to the GoodSpeed Opera House for a show once every few months -wants kids eventually -will give me my dream wedding -just wants to talk once in a while not do anything just sit around and talk -Is fine with all my medical issues and pains -gives a great back rub! -love my family! Im just in a i want a man mood not ecen sexually i just somone to cry with and laugh with and somone to hug!

When your best isnt enough? My sister woks her ass of to support her husband and 2 kids. Mind you her best is 15 hrs a week and her husband just had his hip replaced and he cant work- But what do you do when shes working her ass off and everyone else here is doing what they can to contribute I dont work Ill admit it! I 21 years old divorced and living at home again not working- But im not working really untill i find out about my disability if im going to get it or not- And if i do work it hurts my disability case- I dont want a free ride, but i dont want to go to work every day afraid of blacking out and everything! If i fall at work, im 5'10 and that floor is not a good landing area! WE all at my dads house are supporting her and trying to help her the best we can- If she cant afford her rent dad lets it go- but its adding up! The electricity is going to get shut off in a few days if no one comes up with the 480$! i dont know my valume is kicking in i gotta lay down ill post more in the morining@

Hey everyone- got a job its going pretty well--- i think ill be around for a while there- im doing a good job and meeting some awesome people wich is great now that im living in town again and stuff i still am in awe that im talking to my highschool crush online- its wierd in HS i put him on like a pedastool- and now hes real, like accessable total flirt but still verry young anyways Im looking online for a local college that has a criminal justice class and what kinda cources are involved Heidi

Will -Tell me im the most beautiful woman in the world -Is ok just going to a bar and having a few beers -Likes cuddleing on the couch during a movie -will leave it with just the movie no sex -but will try to make a move once and awhile- -will cook if I do the dishes -holds my hand in public -will come with me to a night club -has a job -has plans for the future -is emotionally supportive -is cute!! -is "all there" -has short term abitions -wants to get married in the future -open a door to the movies -open a car door -be open with me about their feelings and thoughts -doesnt mind if i pay for dinner -not complaine about my music -WHO LOVES ME FOR ME

I thought dating would be so much easier after my ex and i seperated from my ex but damn its gettin harder I know my standards have changed I want a college grad somone in their late 20's Attractve has his shit together- doesnt smoke weed or drink like a fish- has his shit together- I want security and i want it now lol i dont wanna wait lol

Ok I know im getting a divorce but wht does the guy i dated for about a week feel the need to give my email address to everyone in his family and harass me? Is there a point to asking me who the fuck i think i am... I think im better then dave smoked too much weed partyed too much- Im 21 years old and getting a divorce- i know some shit about relationships and I know putting partying before a girlfriend is mistake number one eso if IM the girlfriend I wont deal with it! the next thing i know hes going to give out my screen name and phone number I told him on sunday that i was going to go hang out with my old fuck buddy... thought he would get jealous and end it So i droped the L bomb said i was falling in love with him scared him off :) So mission accomplished- Theres sopmthing wrong with a man who goes by Dr KnockBoots and says he has a PhD in fucking... and the sex was horriable! thats why i wanted to end it he was cute as hell but a bad lay- men are dumb!