Pezz's blog: "Yea im here-"

Well Jeremy and I got into another fight i brought it up about him screwing other people and other men and he threw it into myface so i through into his face about my surgery and how he didnt give me enough time to recover- We still love each other i feel but i know if we tried to work on it we really could- So now beucase him and i dislike each other so much im stuck here at my dads house woth -a senile grandmother -my 25 year old sister -her 6 year old daughter -35 year old brother in law -1 year old nephew -my dad So im sleeping on the couch! There isnt evena room here for me or anything- So i dont know what to do Im ready to go stay in a shelter just to be away from my family beucase they alldrive me so insane! theres so much drama and noice with the kids i wanna be in bed and alsepp by 9 ish but grandma has to watch the news at midnight its crazy and I hate it here. Its so hard for me to do anything with all my medicall issues. O new drama my sister lost her wallet with everything she owns o the house is getting torn appart, So im going to go help look for it :( wish me luck-

Hey! Im Heidi and I have no idea how to use this damn website Im kinda too busy with stressing about my divorce to sit here and figure this thing out. SO I found out my ex husband is into s&m and whips and chains and Im not and it got in the way of our relationship I was all excited about christmas andmaking a family tradition for us to start and go with and pass on to our kids (if that were to ever happen) But Hes into bondage and men SO im not going to put up with im going to find a man who deserves me and my love. ALot of my time is going to gowards me and things i need to focous in in my life Like getting into school and getting a good job and my dissability pay. But i just wanted to get some feelings out- I need somestuff to get me through this like the complete idiots guide to surving divorce. Inface im going to go look for some books online that might help me. Pezz