Catalyst of Insanity TO Girl's blog: "writting"

the walls have eyes when i lay awake and toss and turn theres no peace here the room sinks in andi feel it crushing down on me i reach for u findng nothing no one there cuz u never really were there nothing i can do i lay awake and i find my self in a cold sweat i wait and paces but i cant seem to find the stillness in my mind whats the use at least the darkness holds me victim of my mind its own abuse nightmares i always wake up screaming see it all and it touches me deep cold child shaking panting i would love to run but whats the use admit defeat but this it takes no prisoners scream for mercy but my mind seems to think its all fair game another restless night

smiles scrap like sand paper when u look at me pain is in ur ice blue eyes now plain to see tell me whats the point u say u see thru me but u dont know a thing hear no words cold stone touch what the point shield my self and i live indenyle let it out and see it all just fade away its like lost in the shaddow so walk with blinder to get thru the day nothing left to say not like u hear me anyways nothing left to do when ur sooo tied up ur self push and pull what the point i get lost in the struggle shield my self or let it out shield my self and i live indenyle let it out and see the beauty fade away walk on by i lose u in the shaddow whats the point when i lose my self in u sheild my self and i live indeayle let it out and see it all just fade sheild my self and i live indenyle so i let i it out and the beauty fades away... the beauty fades away cuz ur smiles scrap like sand paper u let us fade away

lonely ones longing in desire u fight it out let the beauty fade away thoughtless minds they always hunger for those things they can not have want not waste not nothing gained all i know is with u its just the same tell me something tell me evrything say its not a game lonely hearts beat stronger still while i listen feel ur pulse race thru my ears like a child i find comfort here what is the use y not just submit whats the point ohh i thought u got it the lonely reach out touch nothing even when ur skins on my skin vapid emptiness with in whats the point want not waste not nothing gained reach to fill the void lonely hearts reach to feel the void