Cowboy Cassanova's blog: "Matt's Blogz"

It's funny, people tell me to be optimistic that things will happen, that people will be nice to me.  BULLSHIT!  I met a girl last night, she said that she wanted to talk and get to know each other, not even 12 hours later, she wants nothing to do with me.  Funny, I'm smart and have a college education, she didn't, I don't have kids, she does.  It's amazing that someone can tell you that they want to get to know you, and expect you to accept them for who and what they are, and when you do, they tell you that they don't want to talk to you again.  I just don't fucking get it.  Why does everyone have to treat me like shit?  Why do people judge me on the outside, instead of the inside?  Why is it okay for someone to treat me like that, but if I don't answer, or something stupid, it's my fault for everything.  I think from this point on I'm just going to treat everyone like an ass, that way, I can't get hurt, and no one can say I was doing this, or wasn't doing that.  I"m better off single, and alone, it's the way most of my adult life has been, might as well keep it that way.  I honestly thought that not all females were the same, but I guess I was wrong, they are ALL THE SAME.  They don't know how to treat a decent guy, instead he's the one that has to pay for what the assholes have done to them, all you were trying to do is be a decent guy and shit, and they just treated you like you were nothing.  I hope one day they find someone that will treat them like shit, beat on them, and shit, and they will truely know what it's like, until then, I guess they will be losers and that fact will never change.  I never thought I'd be the one to give up on finding a relationship, but looks like I am, I guess I'm giving the world a big FUCK YOU, because I've been hurt for the last time, it's time for others to see the side of me I have kept away for so long, I"m not going to say I'm sorry, I'm not going to be sorry, I'm going to just say 'you'll live' because it seems like even though I'm nice, no one seems to care, no one wants someone who cares.  Tomorrow is my birthday, I wanted to have someone to celebrate it with, guess that won't happen now.  Oh well what's the big deal it's just me right?  No one cares about me, so why bother?  Thanks everyone, for showing me that no matter what noone cares, guess that's the way the fucking world and people work now days