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Dear Mom~ 1996....
I wake up each morning with you in my mind.
I fumble through thoughts that aren't so kind.
The next feeling I feel every day,
too hurtful to talk of, too painful to say.....
My mind races with questions directed to you.
My heart is bleeding and torn in two.
One minute I'm angry and want to hate,
but conquered by love, I procrastinate.....
I feel alone abandoned by all.
Even you Mom built a wall.
You are so far away, and you never come here.
I find myself missing you and try not to tear.....
I wipe it away and stuff it inside.
These feeling I feel have started to collide.
My weary mind tells me to stay away,
my burning heart just screams to pray....
God gives me answers through my heart.
He says Mothers and daughters should never part.
I keep hanging on because I love you so much,
thanking the Lord for he is my crutch.....
You don't even know me at all anymore.
I became a woman and you closed the door.
I've grown in age and in family too.
I need to more now, I wish you knew.....
We're all getting older, life is moving fast.
Some day you'll go on and leave no memories of our past.
Gifts & materials just come and go.
Memories of the heart are priceless you know.....
Sunday dinners just once a month you see,
will give us those memories that you seem to flee.
Sharing our hopes, our laughs, and our tears,
only you mother can comfort my fears.....
I long for that bond that mothers and daughters share.
You've gone from my heart and it just isn't fair.
I yearn for you mom to be my best friend.
The break in my heart, only you can mend.....
My children are in need of your loving touch.
Show them you'll be there, they love you so much.
Take them home with you to cuddle and love.
Nanas warmth is sweeter than a dove.....
I hope some day you'll understand what I mean,
because only then mother will our slate be clean.
We all need your time just as the rest do.
Maybe even more because your daughters are two.....
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.. .. By Vicki Sinclair 1996
