I cannot seem to get my thoughts together today. Would say it’s the typical Monday, but usually whenever Monday rolls around it doesn’t seem too terribly bad. I’m usually looking for the optimistic views of everything, but today I just couldn’t see it. I tried, don’t get me wrong, but today went a little something like this: Woke after somewhat of a restless night dragging my tail getting ready. Got to work and was slammed the minute I walked in with more things piling up. Basically found out that I was going to have to pull five hundred dollars out of my rear for different things…one of them being my truck’s windshield. For those of you who know me, you know I can’t stand to have something stay wrong with my truck. Thank God for good credit and loving adopted bank family! That’s all I have to say about that! Personally I felt like crap…seemed really weak and tired throughout the day. I slammed my hand in a ladder that collapses into itself. So when the ladder fell, it crushed the top and bottom middle of my hand, which is now a bit swollen. Seriously need to get back into the chiropractor and am due for another dentist appointment as well. Then on top of it all I’m missing one of the most amazing people I’ve ever met and really have absolutely no way to tell her what‘s on my mind for the first time in about a month. I seriously haven’t felt similar to this in years, but the way it feels is something really unique. Well, today it hit me like a ton of bricks out of nowhere. Something sparked one hell of a fire with me…seriously. All I can think about is her…she’s always on my mind…, can’t listen to the radio because every single song reminds me of her and makes me miss her more…everywhere I go, it’s like there’s traces of her or something that stimulates my mind to think of her…, she’s everywhere. I miss her laughter, her voice, her smiles, her sincerity, hell even the smartass little comments jokingly throughout each conversation. I’m not complaining, because believe you me…it’s one rush of a feeling. I mean, I knew good and well that I had feelings for her because she’s a beautiful woman both inside and out. Every time we talk it’s like we draw a little closer to each other. But good gosh to the extent that I feel like I’m longing for the next time we talk. I kind of feel like I’m a crazy fool or something rambling on like this. But Wow… All I’m saying is that it really makes you appreciate someone being in your life a bit more when all this hits you like it’s hit me. Oh and on top of this all, I'm all nervous because my little sister could go into labor any time now. So, I'm anxiously awaiting that phone call as well! Anyways, I’m going to go toss and turn a but more hoping that I fall asleep soon. My mind kept going in circles so I had to get this off my chest. Maybe it will help, Hah! Hugs and all that good shit to you all!
