...out in the starlighttttt "'til I get to my truckkkkkkkkkk....."(End singing here)
For the second time within a few weeks period, I'm up at a client's quite late at night. Went home to cook supper and brought it up to one of the technicians. Since we're attempting to have patience while waiting for the main server to come back up, I figured I'd jot a few random thoughts that are fluttering through my mind.
I'm really starting to cringe at the whole "love" terminology. Seriously, do you realize how many people just throw it around? I mean, if the person truly means what they are saying deep down then this is fine, but it's quite irritating because the majority of society truly doesn't understand what love is. To me, love is both simple and complex. It's unexplainable, uncontrollable, and unconditional. And if you haven't read anything regarding my profile itself, let's recap a little:
"Love is like a mountain. It's hard to climb, but once you get to the top the view is beautiful! I mean, it's got it's ups and downs, but it's also like a river in the sense that true love will cut a path no matter any obstacle. We struggle finding ourselves "looking" for that right someone. The problem is that when you "look," you never really find what's good for you. You wonder what in the world is in store for you in the future and how long it will take to get there. You find yourself putting your heart into something, no matter if it's a job or love for that matter, and it does not give back. It hurts at first but then you become stronger and work past it. Then there are those people, no matter what the relationship is to you, that just capture you from the start. They capture you, love you, and respect you...bring out the best in you. Sometimes you really don't realize it until the point where it's about to late. Then your stupid ass gets lost in the struggle of trying to prove to them that you do care when your problem in the beginning was struggling to find something you couldn't see in front of your face. But instead you were too busy believing things that weren't genuine because someone/something was trying to "woo" you until they felt they had you, then they show you the true side. People that try to "win" people over really piss me the fuck off. I just want you to know that. Just be yourself...seriously. If you can't be yourself then what the HELL is the point? I mean really. Too many people seriously let greed, jealousy and lust get in the way of way too many things. Blunt and to the point...there you have it! LOL"
In other news:
This whole "single life" is a little bit annoying. For the most part I'm fine with it. On the other hand, it seems like I find myself working late more than just an occasion whether I'm at home or work, get into more mischief...for better lack of words, not able to sleep, and really just feel like there is a piece of me that's empty. It's a little humorous in a way, because when I'm in a relationship it's the complete opposite. When I'm in a relationship, I can't wait until the time rolls around where I can leave work...if I don't leave early to surprise...run home into the arms of someone I truly do care about...spoil them, and do anything in my power just to make them happy, within reason of course. This being said, for who ever is reading this madness, we'll go ahead and touch basis on "why I'm single," since that's the topic that's seemed to come up so very much within the last few weeks. Personally, I'm single because of the fact that nothing has "clicked" to stay. Also with this, if it has clicked then it is just not something that's completely connected yet. If you actually knew anything about my past, you'd possibly understand why I'm not in so much of a rush to be in one. Trust levels with me have to be acquired and earned, because there is a tremendous wall to overcome due to cautiousness. There's one person in particular that I've spent quite a bit of time getting to know, explaining various parts about what makes me me...why I tick the way I do...and the like. That one person I'm starting to slowly grow a bit fond of...which is quite different and nice from anything that's happened in a few years, actually. Who knows what will come of it, but regardless of anything else, I'm sure there will be one hell of a friendship. So, for those of you playing the "chase" game....why don't you slow down and get to know someone before over powering them...may help you out in the long run. I think that's enough rambling for this moment in time...going back to work now....
