A reflection of my past,
I've been chewed up
I've been spit out
Been used and neglected
I've done without
Been called a bitch
A cunt, a slut and a whore
Been beaten til I bled
and could bleed no more
I've been called worthless
Just a piece of trash
I've slept in the gutters
Been knocked on my ass
I've walked in the darkness
I've been spit in the face
Made to feel like shit
I've been disgraced
I've given so much
And received nothing in return
I've been a woman abused
Left broken and burned
I've crawled within myself
Afraid to let me shine
Scared of my own light
I was left blind
I've been violated and raped
My body and my soul
Been told it was my fault
That I didn't mean no
I've been called ugly
Retarded, stupid and fat
Been thrown off a balcony
I've been beaten with a bat
I've been left lying
Told to just die
But I didn't listen
I'm still alive
Through the pain and the beatings
Like a phoenix from the fire
I was granted a new life
Now I'm a fighter
Released from the hell
And all the hurt you've done to me
I now know I'm beautiful
An angel to fly free
I refuse to give you access
to determine my worth
I refuse to let you do more damage
or cause anymore hurt
I should've been treated better
not thrown and used like a rag
I should've been your goddess
Not your punching bag
I deserved love and kindness
from a REAL man
I deserved to be shown the world
not the back of your hand
I am a queen
Perfect example of god's love
stunning in my complexeties
A diety sent from up above
I lock the door on your hurt
And today I celebrate
For you are now the past
and just a memory of a mistake.
By Shanna.
