Reeka's blog: "Cancer stuffs"

I found out yesterday that my tissue expansion has to go on hold due to my radiation.  Once the radiation is done, I may not be able to have any further expansion.  At best, it will be several months before my new boobs will be worked on again. 

I went out last night to the bar... wore a cami tank with a loose shirt over it.  Apparently it was either too loose or not loose enough cuz I ended up getting stared at everywhere.  Which led to me drinking more... which led to getting royally drunk, which I guess I needed.

I've been trying to find work... I've finally resorted to pulling the survivor card and writing cover letters that say I was out of work fighting breast cancer and want to start a new challenge... I figured it's the only thing that will really set me apart from the competition.  I've gotten no calls back from any applications over the past 7 months, so it's not like it can make it any worse - and maybe I'll get lucky and find a hiring manager that's been touched by it and will go to bat for me.  *shrugs*

I'm feeling blah.  I think I've forgotten to take my meds for a few days now.  I did take them now; hopefully my mood is just the result of my weaning off my antidepressant.  Or PMS... I guess that's one thing I won't have to worry about once I'm done with the radiation and start on Tamoxifen.