I think I'm finally realizing what has me so bothered about moving back to my home town. Since my marriage ended, I have been very careful about who I let around me. My standards of who I date, who I'm friends with, even who I know casually are very high.
I always felt stifled and trapped around my parents. And now that they are bankrolling this move, I will be under their thumb even more. I know that every decision I make will be under harsh scrutiny. I feel like going back there I will be sacrificing who I am.
At least I'll be on the river again. I'll just need to make friends who have boats and can kidnap me!
