Well....I woke up this morning....this should be a good thing right? Well...to my great suprise, I wake up to a text message. A text message from the guy I've been "kinda" dating since February.
The text said "I hope you know we are just friends and that's all."
So I reply "What do you mean?" Thinking maybe something has gone on.
Him: "We aren't dating."
Me: "Ok, what brought this up?" Mind you this was outta the blue, we talked on the phone last night and he never said anything like that.
Him: "Nothing. We really never were in my mind."
Me: "OK. WHATEVER."
SO Yeah....I'm alittle heartbroken. This is a guy that I've put plenty of other guys on hold for, bc I wasn't sure what our status was. Some of you reading this are probably shaking your heads, bc I've told you..."well..I'm kinda dating someone." But I guess I should have known better right? But this has totally blindsided me. He and I work together. We don't show anything up at work at all. Most people if they were to be told we had been sleeping together for the past 6 months would be VERY VERY shocked. Hell, I guess that's how we both wanted it...kinda like--if they found out they found out. But I've been dealing with this for a few months now, bc I've wanted just alittle committment from him--just to say that we are only sleeping with each other. That's easy. I'm a good woman. Not too bad looking. And I'm easy to date, bc I give me whole self usually. Prob my first mistake, I shouldn't be doing that anyways, but I do. I love to be in love. And he had my whole heart at this point and took it this morning and totally tore it into a thousand little pieces. I'm a strong woman, but I had surgery last week, and I guess I'm alittle emotional. Shouldn't be I guess though. I should never trust anyone with my heart, they usually end up fucking breaking it anyways.
Well...I was hoping this would make me feel better, but it really hasn't. Hopefully by this afternoon, I'll have pulled myself back together to be the mom and friend that I am supposed to be and this hurt will be like it never happened!
