Dreaming ,lying here looking up at the stars , wondering where u are .. smiling to myself .. and hoping your smiling back as you look down on me .. tears well up in my eyes ... i think i of you often .. but i don't allowe myself to cry too often .. crying too much seems to make me feel so weak .. so helpless and i never want to be helpless .. i want to be independant ... if only you could see some of the things i've done .. some of the things i told i would .. i've crossed them off my list .. i've been to Paris Mum ,oh my , it was so wonder , so romantic , just like you toldme it would be .. .. the french men with thier big hats .. what do you call them again Berrets .. they smiled at me , it was a beautiful summers day when we went me and Nia .. we have a picture too ,its just so beautiful it makes you feel like you never want to leave ... What a place forever .. leaving its footprints in my heart ,in my soul.