Have you ever Felt like the one that you Love Has put you aside ? Or ever have the Feeling that your not the same person that you used to be? Have you ever loved some one so Much it hurt just to think that they might not ever know it ? We all have those feelings. As much as I like people to think, that Im the hard Bitch that I am, I still Feel just Like every one else. While its hard to know who to trust most of the time I keep My feelings to my self its just easier to be alone most of the time. With that said, the edge of darkness is inching ever closer as I draw with in to the Safey of my little world. There is a Great fear that I might lose who i am and the way I feel for those that I love. In the end Im finding it harder and harder not to just walk away from those that I know can hurt me. I know that Im loved by the few that know who i really am, but that dont change any thing, if that one person dont even know Im alive any more. I know it sounds EMO and thats some thing that Im not. But it makes you wonder is it all worth it? Is it better to Love in the Dark and hide in the light or to just Keep it in and Pray it dont destroy you?
Alas another qustion that I dont have an answer to
such is life
Till next time
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*Smooches* C-Ya
Cold hands on my skin
I fight to hold the Scream with in
The tighter he holds me the Harder I fight
I want to be with him, but this is not right
I see love when I look at his face
But I don't want to be in this Vampire's embrace
as he kisses my neck his teeth Break the Skin
I try to fight but I know i cant win
He Holds me tighter Now I cant Breath
I know I will Die if he chooses to Leave
He Lowers My body on to the Ground
He whispers my name without making a sound
I'm starting to die, I can feel my soul slip
One Last time he kisses my lips
He Opens his writs and the blood starts to flow
He holds my Lips to it and My hunger starts to grow
You are mine now forever,he whispers to me
Now open your eyes behold what you see
Trapped in this body never to age
The world is my oyster, I'm star of the stage
With you forever, immortal Like this
All because of one Vampire's Kiss
In the dark Of the Night I want to die
With what Im dealing with All I do is Cry
I hide My thoughts and Feelings Well
I choose to Suffer My peronal Hell
Torn By feelings I dont Dare Speak
They are My secrets to Keep
Hurting and Suffering I do it On my own
Wondering if I will ever Find A true Place to call home
Wondering Why I live this way
Wondering why They never Stay
Loveing and Leaving Im just a stop on the road
Leaving me alone to bare this Load
I give all that I am, till theres nothing Left to give
With all of thses wounds my Soul has become a Sive
The Anger the hurt and the Fear
I cant escape that much is clear
How Can I love you, When I Know your not for me
Again I Hide it well You will never See
It Kills me to Love you and not Be with you
But i know its not Possable with all we have been through
I will Be in your corrner The bitch that has your back
Waitig in the Shadows for the Next time to attack
You may never Know How I feel about you and me
I will be nothing more then the firend you need
There is no Peace For me In This Game of Life
More wounds are open, no need for a knife
Helping you Drive the Balde in Deeper
Knowing that She is your Keeper
I knew Loveing you was doomed from the start
you have enought of me to Break my heart
But Friends Now till the end of time
Knowing that you will never be mine
Only Forsaken and Tossed aside
So in the Sunlight I stand and Hide
Hurting Begging to Die
Eyes so Dry No Longer able to Cry
I will always Love you No Matter how Far
you Wil always be My shinging Star
Your Voice Kills me every time you Speak
It still Holds the Power to make me Weak
Seeing you without me by your side
Just another Reason, My feelings I Hide
So Much For I love you, and I will Never Let you go
Thoses Words Still Hurt me More then you will ever KNow
A Long Time ago I was On here and I was pretty Hot Shit But I Left For Reasons that are My Own But Now I have Returned and I wont Fall for the Same shit again. Love is Love Lust is Lust and Its all good in my book
Cant Rain all the time