XxcyanidexcupcakexX's blog: "On my Mind..."

Another long day at the shop, had alot of business today though which is good. Most of the day though i was thinking about what has happened to me in the past few months. I called home to talk to my father, he was telling me how my whole family is saying its MY fault everything turned out the way it did. How its my fault im trying to figure out. Things happen for a reason i guess, the only thing i can think of is that soon something good will happen. Im just hoping its soon because i cant take much more of the low and bad. I just have to get on with my life and keep my head held high....easier said then done. I still have my bad days where i just cry and wish everything would end so i didnt have to deal with it. But like i said...things happen for a reason...why i still dont know. I just want to be happy, and have a place of my own again. Is being happy so much to ask for? thats all i want. im happy with certain things but other things i would like to change. I hope someone understands what im talking about... if not oh well... i know what im talking about hahaha.

I think thats all im gonna write for now... ill prolly write more later on....

Niki