Im so fucked in the head from the thing that you said
so blown away by what you said today
the suicidal thoughts that ran through my head
if i didnt stop and think id sure as fuck be dead
suicide contemplations still run through now
i think of the people and i wonder how
those brand new are the ones that care
and the ones who hurt me are those thatve been there
thats some fuckd up shit, i feel so betrayed
you guys takin shots at me when you cant get laid?
that shit was confidential but fuck it lets tell em all
say it was a fuckin joke man you got some balls
and in my own god damn house, what kinda shit is that
stop and think a second, where the fuck you at?
you have no idea how the fuck you made me feel
was 3 seconds away from 6 inches of steel
the worst part is you dont see it as wrong
maybe you will realize once you read along
i just cant get over the feelings inside
the moment you sad that is when i died inside
you think i took off so i could go hide
i thought of them and was slowly revived
the people that love me, that truly give a shit, that dont pop off there mouth and look so ignorant
i feel so angered, embarrassed, ashamed
go ruin my rep and kill my fuckin name
make the excuse id do the same to you
but anyone who knows me know that shit aint true
you think it was a joke, you thought that shit was funny
next time at the bar find a new best buddy
i dont want your pity, no more bullshit games
everywhere i go its all the fuckin same
the ones you think you trust always stab you in the back
set the opportunity, and theyll set the attack
all i see is steel slashing down my veins
the warm red blood flowing down the lanes
the blood drips down my body to a puddle on the ground
the pain feels so good and noone hears a sound
i feel so alive and its only the beginning
im finally fuckin happy, the start of my sinning
the people who love me flash in my mind
as i drift back i know that thats a sign
nows not the time wait until another day
until another time the steel will be saved
and as the day closes i take a look back
still so mindfucked that shit was whack
think before you speak or heed the consequences
more often then not the results are still pretentious
Dustin B. Unrath 7/8/08
