Impatience, betrayal, and noone to save you
the mind fucks and fighting, im tired of trying
reliving the past, i feel like dying
anger and hate, im tired of lying
the internal scars that never do show
the pain and the rage that always grow
all the emotions that boil when stowed
with death contemplations time goes so slow
the past catches up in the blink of an eye
emotion escapes in a tear from an eye
a glance at opportunities that passed you by
all the little things you missed on the fly
the evil i deal and the pain that i feel
it seems so unreal, but ill never heal
look to the sky for an answer in the stars
and i wonder how ive even made it this far
realize real life isnt that hard
your dealt your hand, you play your card
come stumbling back from a haunting past
i never realized itd be back so fast
ive never realized my life is so trashed
or how bad my past and future will clash
the past is the past but it always comes back
throwing a wrench in a new set of tracks
its always the bad things that i attract
sinks deep inside just to fade black
the sounds they fade but the pictures lay stained
i try to focus but my vision is strained
all of this shit engrained in my brain
just another trip down memory lane
no matter how hard i fight it its always ignited
so im constantly plighted its easy to hide it
but it leaves me insight, why the futures not bright
why my head not on right, why i like to fight
my defense against the world, so they dont freeze in my cold
for the whole in my soul so they're not caught in the hold
i stare in amazement at what ive done
seeing vast nothingness thats only begun
to disguise the critique i hide in the sun
for now the is just set to stun
a shadow of doubt, the pain of remorse
the past becomes a deadly dark force
the actions you take drive your lifes course
redelivering emotions that once were stored
i grow and know that lifes not fair
but living the pasts a real nightmare
sometimes at night i sit and i stare
a lonely know that noones there
i hide myself while crying lowly
wondering why im dying so slowly
and will i turn out good, never knowing
wondering why noones showing
Dustin B. Unrath 6/10/08
