goldilocks's blog: "medical nightmare!!!"

it has been over a year since the illness hit me. never did find out exactly what the hell it was. happy to say that it hasnt come back and i hope and pray it never does. thought i would le you know. hugs and kisses, patricia

received good news today.... no anuerysm or brain tumor yea!!! bad news is.... they also still don't know what is wrong with me. have another mri schedualed for the 1/18...this time to look at my back for a pinched nerve. i dont understand how something in my back can cause problems with my vision and cause blinding stabbing pain in my head??, but i can understand how it can affect my motor skills. i just want the crap fixed... now more good news...lmao john is getting his brains screwed out tonight since i dont have to worry about my head blowing up now....wohoo!!!i'm getting laid...rotflmao. hugs and kisses, patricia have a merry christmas and remember to thank god for your blessings

have just a couple more days till i find out what can be done with my head...keeping my faith and my head up about it all. have no intention of going without a fight thanks to all my friends for thier prayers and support. will let ya'll know something on the 21st after my doctor appt. hugs and kisses to you all, patricia

this is an update on the test i just had run. we are currently playing the waiting game. we have been told it takes from 5 to 10 days to get the results. i have a doctor appt. schedualed for the 21st to get the test results. if at any time between now and then things change I will let everyone know. thanks for all your prayers and support. hugs and kisses, patricia

just a few more days (5 more) till i get the mri and mra test done on my head. then i get to wait for the results. that appt. is already schedual for the 21st. will let yall know as soon as i find out. in the mean time i'll be cutting all my hair off or getting it cut off so some kid can use it as a wig. trying to find a place to do that. rather that than the hospital dropping it on the floor and throwing it away. i think it is long enough to do that. does anybody know who i should contact to donate my hair before my surgery. if so please email me. hugs and kisses, patricia

my situation with my health isn't getting any better. i have lost some of my motor skills on the left side of my body. when i get real tired i start dragging my left leg and cant seem to hold onto any thing with my left hand. like my vision it comes and goes. right now my leg just feels heavy. called the doctors office and basicly got told there wasnt any thing they could do to speed up the medical system. simply informed me that if i continued to get worst to go back to the emergengy room. i already have 2 emergency room bills and all they want to do is give me meds for the pain. that i want take because they just dont work. so what is the point. besides if they did work it would just conceal the fact i have a time bomb in my head waiting to go off. i rather feel the pain and know what is going on than ignore it and pretend everything is ok. oh one more thing it is really hard for me to focus and type rite now so im not online as often as i was before. posting comments is really difficult for me to do rite now. i'll try and make it up to yall later. hugs and kisses, patricia

well i quit smoking recently. 4 and 1/2 weeks ago this past saturday. i quit for my own health and for the health of my kids. no more 2nd hand smoke. it was the right thing to do... but here is the kicker.... unknown to me i had a under lying medical problem. since i quit smoking the nicotine is no longer in my system restricting my blood vessels. there is a strong history of anuerysims in my family.. and now i have stabbing pains in the back of my head. tried to ignore them thinking it was just withdrawals from quitting smoking. went to the doctor and got sent to the emergency room. since i dont have health insurance i spent 14 hours sitting at the charity hospital system just to get a appointment for a MRI and a MRA. both are schedual a month from now on the 11th of december. In the mean time i get to play the waiting game and hope my head doesnt blow up. I will keep my friends posted as things progress. hugs and kisses to all, patricia