You know ppl can sometimes fall into a fake reality of life and love. One day everyone one of us will fall in love with someone for some reason or another. Then the world changes things happen life becomes hell. You find yourself hating where you are in life and whom you are with. You stay in the relationship for different reasons, maybe a kid is involved maybe the person your with is just depended on you and you can’t leave them. Maybe you just don’t have the freaking courage to make the change that you need because you don’t have a safety net. For what ever reason you sit there and think you may find many a different reason that you just stay put and not try to make yourself happy.
I have recently gotten the courage and the strength to make myself happier. I will be leaving a lot behind and I know I will be hurting some people in my wake. Do I care, yes because if I didn’t I would have done this long ago. Life is about choices, life is about happiness, life is about living for the here and the now because there may not be a tomorrow. Ppl will never be happy if they do not try and make themselves happy, (I was informed of this from several friends on here).
Things I have learned about making your life better.
1. You can only make yourself happy no one else in the world is going to do it for you.
2. You have to be honest with your self and everyone around you.
3. You can’t go behind someone’s back (wife/husband) and try to offset the blame to someone else. (Apparently, this is something I have been doing, and I am truly sorry for that)
4. You have to remember just because you do something wrong doesn’t mean everyone else in the world is doing it. (Again, that would be me not anyone else doing the wrong)
5. You have to pay close attention to what ppl are telling you and not read into things because it does not help and you will try to read in the wrong things all the time due to the guilt you feel for doing wrong in the first place.
6. You shouldn’t worry about everything because things are going to happen no matter what. You need to face them head on and be prepared for it good or bad.
7. And the Biggest thing I have learned it simply BE HONEST.. I know I said it already but needs to be reminded.
I know most of you on here don’t care, most of you are like WTF. The person that needs to read this will and I hope I express how much you mean to me and I am thankful for you being in my life, helping me and being brutally honest when I need it. You are my strength and I am sorry I have done some things wrong and you have helped me to correct them.
The only person to blame for my life and the way that it is, IS ME NO ONE ELSE. Not my wife, my close friend, not the freaking mailman that brings those damn bills. I am the master of my own destiny no one else.
Thank you all for reading this silly blog that helps me get over things.
I need to remember to read this daily. And I’m sure I will be adding to it.
