Redheaded Swirl's blog: "Life in Savannah"

Dear Billy, I just got back home from telling you goodbye. I heard the stories as to what happened and it passes through my mind. I wish no one had told me the details, but listened to Kenny cause he needed to talk. And you are no longer there for him to go to. I know he will be there for the boys, he can not take your place by no means, but he can support them the way you would want him to. You had your demon, and it seem to never let you go. But that demon is no longer there, God has taken him off for good. I love you so much Billy. The way you could always make a person laugh, the way you were always ready to give a hug to some one if you thought they need it, and the way you were quick to stand up for your family. You never denied who you were and never lied about the things that you did. if you did it, you were man enough to say you did it. Aside from that demon, you were a great man, and we all know it. You are with God now, and he is keeping you safe. He took you young and swift, that is the one thing we are all thankful in the end. You never set out to hurt a soul, and the only life you took was your own. I wish there was any way to go back, and tell you to not take that drink, but I cant. I wish I could go back and tell you not to speed, but I cant. The only thing I can do is thank God you did not suffer and thank him for giving the time he did give us. You are a great man, and an awesome cousin. We were all there today, except Kelly, but he was there in spirit and called Mom to check on everything. He did not have enough time to get home from overseas. That Chapel was packed and then some. People were standing on the aisles, that should tell you how many people you touched and how many of us love you. I know you will always be with us, because we will never stop thinking of you and loving you. Please rest in peace, and I will see you when it is my time. Loves, PJ My cousin Billy was killed Thursday Feb 14 2008. He was drinking and lost control of his truck. I love my cousin, he means a lot to me and always will. I know this is an "online happy hour". But please be careful with your drinking, my cousin was 42 with a wife and two young sons. His oldest son watched his father die in that car accident in the most horrific accident I have ever heard of in my life. And I work trauma, and worked ems in the past. I have seen a lot. The only demon my cousin had was the bottle. Never had a drug problem, never violent, and never hurt any one other than himself. So before you take that next real drink, and get behind the wheel, think of those you will leave behind, and the way that they will have to see you for it.

DANG talking about getting aggrevated. Why do people totally ignore a persons profile when they contact you? I mean most everything about me is there. Like the fact that I AM NOT LOOKING TO HOOK UP WITH ANYONE!!! I gotta Man, why in the hell would I risk that for some one off the net. And my biggest irritation is this guestion A/S/L? Well dayum that is on my profile also. Then I get asked of I am single, guess what on my profile also. It seems like I am getting it right and left with people. Then people when I tell them my situation and all, they act like they are doing me a favor by understanding. I was not asking for your opnion and if you thought it was ok. Shit it is my life, I will do as I damn well please. I am 31 y/o, I stopped asking permission on how to live my LIFE long dang time ago. So on that loud note, I am going to go surf and listen to my tunes. Maybe that will chill me out. Cause I am getting frustrated with the kids on here.

One of my best friends sent this to me today. I really liked it a lot. I am not one for the jokes, chain letters, and things that everyone forwards. But this one was different for me. A United States Marine, who had completed missions in Iraq and Afghanistan, was attending some college courses between assignments. One of the courses had a professor who was a vowed atheist and a member of the ACLU. One day the professor shocked the class when he came in. He looked to the ceiling and flatly stated: "God, if you are real, then I want you to knock me off this platform. I'll give you exactly 15 minutes." The lecture room fell silent. You could hear a pin drop. Ten minutes went by and the professor proclaimed, " Here I am, God. I'm still waiting." It got down to the last couple of minutes when the Marine got out of his chair, went up to the professor and socked him hard, knocking him off the platform! The professor was out cold. The Marine went back to his seat and sat there, silently. The other students were shocked and stunned and sat there looking on in silence. The professor eventually came to, noticeably shaken. He looked at the Marine and asked, "What the hell is the matter with you? Why did you do that?" The Marine calmly replied, "God was busy today protecting America's soldiers who are protecting your right to say stupid stuff and act like a fool. So He sent me."

Today was to dang long... And now I got some one following me around on Fubar.. what is up with that? I have been reading Mumms this evening. And there was one that really ticked me off. Not the Mumm it self, but a comment a guy made. It was a soldier asking for help. And this dumbass was just bashin the guy about being a soldier. I guess I need to add some info. I come from a military family, most of my friends are military family or ex military, so you know soldiers mean a lot to me. And to have this guy bashing them just really set me off on his ass. Dude had never been in the military and obviously knew nothing about the military. The whole time I am thinking about my friends that are over there and then ones that are going to be deployed through out the year, and what they do for this country. The one that sticks out the most is one of my best friends. He is like a brother to me, he has been there once already, almost blown up on his bday. I got the great pleasure of watching his fob get hit and on fire, and cry on the phone with his family and pray that he was safe. Hearing my God daughters asking me if their daddy was ok, and i had to lie to them and say he was fine. I didnt know if he was or not, thankfully he was though. Then my real brother is going back. He has a small son at home that has nightmares at night about not seeing his daddy again. These are the things that are going through my head as i am writing my comment. I had one lady tell me thank you for standin up for our troops, and to be prepared that he would come back at me. I am not worried if he does, i just know that i am going to lose my temper again. I need to go mediatate again tonight and try and relax. I think that would be best. So laters

I am sittin here thinking about things. And there is something that really bothers the hell out of me. Why is that when people want something from you they can pick up the phone, send an email, come by, some how get in contact with you basically, but when they do not want you to do something for them or give something to them, they have no clue you even exist? That really pisses me off. It is like I am not good enough any other time. SO I have decided am i going to be a bitch and let ppl know when they come asking for shit that maybe if they treated me better I would continue to help them, or just let go and get over it? I have always been a giver. I like to help people and know that they have it a little easier from it. But it is getting to the point I am not helping people, they are taking advantage of me. I would probably not be as pissed if they would just appreciate what I do. But they act like because I am the type of person that I am, that I am suppose to just do it. I guess I need to take more time to think about it and see where my thoughts lead me. Laters, Hope you all have a wonderful week

My Master is so wonderful to me. He came to see me this morning. Came over before work, which was really great, morning time is always a good time for some private time. He was so great, after we had our play time, He had time to stay and cuddle some. Which is always good, both are not big cuddlers, just from time to time. It felt so good to have Him back in my bed. Even if it was just for an hour. He was suppose to come back tonight, but He got caught with more work. Which I will admit really hurt my feelings, and got some jealousy going cause the extra work was taking some chick home. BUT He did call me after He took her home, and told me the truth. She wanted to have sex with Him, kept asking, and He just ignored her. And they did not have time to, since He called me an Hr exactly after He told me He was having to take her home, and she was an hr out. When He told me she wanted too, He told He wanted to have sex just not with her, that made me feel good. But He is suppose to come by tomorrow to see me. I am sure that He will. I was very honest with Him, which usually i hold things in and not tell Him that my feelings get a lil hurt when i make all these plans when He tells me He is coming and does not come. But instead of holding back, i was honest and told Him cause i am trying new things this week for things to be better between us. He says that i have been doing real good and that He likes it so i am going to keep doing it. I did break His dick this morning though, did not mean to honestly. I guess i was just too excited to see Him. On that note i am off to bed, hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. And I LOVE YOU DADDY KISSES

This is to make it easier for those that choose to contact me, so that you will know where not to go with me. i live an alternative lifestyle. i am a 31 y/o married female, but i am also a slave to another Man, my husband knows very much what i do, there are no secrets. i am very open minded and love to chat with others on general things, what ppl like, what others are into, etc. Like it says on the front page of my profile, i am not into camming, cyber, phone sex, pic swapping, etc. First, my Man would not like that at all, second it has never been anything that i have been into. So the pics i post people are more than welcomed to see, comment, rate, etc. i will post more as i go. i know i will have people to contact me in negative way about this, and that is fine. People are entitled to their opinions. Remember though this is the way that i choose to live MY LIFE, i am not asking any of you to live this way. But i am also getting a lot of ppl contacting me to cam, send pics, the whole cyber thing, etc. It is really not my thing, and like i said before i am just here to chat with ppl and have a good time. So before you contact me, make sure you read this and my front page. And if you still choose to ask about the things that i am not into, you will understand why you get ignored. Hope everyone has a great day.

Well it is 9:14 am, and I can say that it has been an interesting morning. After I posted my last blog yesterday, I talked with my Man. He sounded all excited to be talking to me, whih was good. I just let it ride you know. He told me He was going to come and see me this morning. Well, He did not come and see me, but He did call me to tell me, before the time that He was going to be here ( let me add that is a HUGE STEP for Him, He never calls to tell me He is not showing). I was really cool with Him about it, He told me He had overslept, we ended up talking the whole time He was driving to work. Talked about a lot of things actually. Told Him about the mumms i was keeping up with last nite, and how i really hoped to see Him today. I know I bitch about Him sometimes, it is just it sucks when I want to see Him and cant. He told me I was mistaken if i thought He did not want to see me, which I was thinking that He didnt. I mean if He wanted to see me, then He would come see me. But with His work right now, He is in Law Enforcement, it is really messed up. Hopefully I will see Him today if not oh well, just keep trying to be patient and bitching about HIm on here lol.