Dear Billy,
I just got back home from telling you goodbye. I heard the stories as to what happened and it passes through my mind. I wish no one had told me the details, but listened to Kenny cause he needed to talk. And you are no longer there for him to go to. I know he will be there for the boys, he can not take your place by no means, but he can support them the way you would want him to. You had your demon, and it seem to never let you go. But that demon is no longer there, God has taken him off for good. I love you so much Billy. The way you could always make a person laugh, the way you were always ready to give a hug to some one if you thought they need it, and the way you were quick to stand up for your family. You never denied who you were and never lied about the things that you did. if you did it, you were man enough to say you did it. Aside from that demon, you were a great man, and we all know it. You are with God now, and he is keeping you safe. He took you young and swift, that is the one thing we are all thankful in the end. You never set out to hurt a soul, and the only life you took was your own. I wish there was any way to go back, and tell you to not take that drink, but I cant. I wish I could go back and tell you not to speed, but I cant. The only thing I can do is thank God you did not suffer and thank him for giving the time he did give us. You are a great man, and an awesome cousin. We were all there today, except Kelly, but he was there in spirit and called Mom to check on everything. He did not have enough time to get home from overseas. That Chapel was packed and then some. People were standing on the aisles, that should tell you how many people you touched and how many of us love you.
I know you will always be with us, because we will never stop thinking of you and loving you. Please rest in peace, and I will see you when it is my time.
Loves,
PJ
My cousin Billy was killed Thursday Feb 14 2008. He was drinking and lost control of his truck. I love my cousin, he means a lot to me and always will. I know this is an "online happy hour". But please be careful with your drinking, my cousin was 42 with a wife and two young sons. His oldest son watched his father die in that car accident in the most horrific accident I have ever heard of in my life. And I work trauma, and worked ems in the past. I have seen a lot. The only demon my cousin had was the bottle. Never had a drug problem, never violent, and never hurt any one other than himself. So before you take that next real drink, and get behind the wheel, think of those you will leave behind, and the way that they will have to see you for it.
