Over 16,537,957 people are on fubar.
What are you waiting for?
im real to a few people in "real life" but for the most part...im a character...a novelty.
that made my mind snap finally to realize...im not made for the new world order of the internet.
i make music with technologically advanced machines at times but i use my real voice with real beats for real people.
but i can be anti-social in front of a group of people haha.
i dont need this.
true emotions and "bonds" dont work for me here.
at times i wish they did but thats a wish.
and i'd rather wish my epilepsy away then find some wonderful connection online.
im back to who i was...hands stained with paint...voice strained with singing.
heart open and mind open.
if there were any real feelings towards me...there must have been a relapse.
to me...its all personal choice.
its not torturing to seem unwanted online.
hahah...ive been Jerm long before i had the internet.
im a tangable being.
im not someone hiding behind a matrix handle to say what i "really" want to.
i do that daily to whoever...so thats that.
