JOY IS A GOOD THING RIGHT... WHAT I MEAN IS JOY IN LIFE IS WHAT MOST PEOPLE WISH FOR... NOT ME, BECAUSE EVEN WITH MY SLIGHTEST JOY... I RECEVE GREAT PAIN... WHEN JOY BRINGS ONLY PAIN EXACTLY WHAT IS LEFT TO WISH FOR??? I COULD WISH FOR DEATH... BUT I THINK THEY WOULD ENJOY THAT TOO MUCH... SO I GUESS I SHOULD WISH FOR RELEASE... FOR A WAY TO ESCAPE FROM THIG PRISON... THIS PRISON THAT IS MY LIFE... THE CRAZY THING IS THAT I AM SCARED... SCARED TO BE RELEASED... AT LEAST HERE I KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT... I DO NOT EVEN THINK THAT I AM BRAVE ENOUGH TO EVEN TRY TO SAVE MY SELF... SO WHILE I STAY HERE IN MY OWN LITTLE PRISON... I DO NOT WISH FOR JOY... AND I DO NOT WISH FOR RELEASE... HOWEVER I DO WISH FOR SLEEP... ENDLESS SLEEP... A SLEEP WHERE MY DREAMS CAN BE MY ESCAPE... UNTILL I LEARN TO BE BRAVE...
