this isnt gonna be the perfect blog by all means and im sures hell not doing a spell check so if there is a misstake oh well...
I have sat on the phone with my b/f for the last 3 hours.. his father is in the hospital and has been for the last couple of weeks and im not able to talk to him much for now because the most of his time he spends at the hospital which i totally understand.. but we live 4 hours from one another and i am suppose to make the trip to see him on the 12th and stay all week for valentines day.. sounds like a great plan right? he can stay there and be able to see his dad but he would have me there for the big V-Day also.. i really do care about him.. i feel like im falling head over heals with this guy
However the V-Day plans are cancelled.. i had to just call and cancell all the reservations for that week because now he doesnt want me to come because of his dad being in the hospital.. ok i can understand not being able to go out nd do much hell im expecting to be at the hospital and all.. but not going to see him at all wtf.. hell i wanted to be there for him but it seems like hes already pushing me away... at the same time i have heard him say 3 times now he dont want me to feel like hes pushing me away that hes just trying to be there for his dad.. i mean i undertand him being there for his dad but why the hell cant i be there for him so he knows that i care that damn much about him.. wtf is mens problems.. why cant you just let a woman be there beside you to support you and just be there ofr you period.. why do you push us away so much when it comes down to things like this.. do you guys realize that when you do this we are sitting back here at the side lines crying because we care for you and want to be there ofr you.. hell you men arent made of steel!
