kashi shani's blog: "LOVE TO WRITE"

for several yrs i leve alone,until i meet a man that i love more thatn my self,my first and last bf,the dad of my daughter, dahil sa kahirapan ng buhay,he need to work in abroad until he dont come back....life must go on,i need to work i need to earn money for me and for my daughter....that time i miss my family,i'l always said if my parents with me may be,may mapag sasabihan ako ng nararamdaman ko.but sad im shy im afarid to tell to my family for what happen to me....just what i said life must go on..
i meet a lot of people in real life true internet i meet a scamer,a fake peole a bad person,but i meet also a true friend..na nakaka unawa saa akin,until my fb friend told me come join in fubar,i told him i dont know fubar,he give me a link and i make a fubar account.i meet again a new friend,sometimes i flirt,i fall inlove and i think he love me also,but sad im not a right girl for him,i accept it to my life,until 1 person told me dont cry be strong,dont allow any one to hurt you to make you cry fight for your life fight for your daughter....im shock for what he said to me....and i replay to his message"thanks Sir! he told me dont call Sir call me Daddy" He is a sweet,caring loving daddy,he treat me like a real daughter,i treat him also like my real father...
my life make happy bcoz even im so far to my real family i have a Daddy that i found true internet,even i cant meet him in real life i meet him true web cam,if im sad tired cry,he always with me, one time he told me i meet someone baby i think she s a goor girl...i told him ohh my sweet daddy fall inlove go go go sweet daddy and its not late to give me a baby siter,he said your bad bad girl.and he smile...smile that i know he happy...im happy for him but im jealous bcoz i think he forget me,he dont talk to me over a week...wen he online he respond my message sorry my bad bad girl im in hospital,my legs is  broke,but you know wen im n hospital i dream that you're with me and you taking care to me...wen i read his message to me i cry...and i hate my self bcoz im thinking wrong to him.....
all his plan in his life he share to me...until one time he said my bad bad girl im going to move in florida,may be we cant talk always bcoz its dont have a net to my pace,but wen i fixed it we talk again like before,im so sad that time but i understand....wen he travel going to florida he said im here in virginia now in m tired to travel,tomorrow im going to florida,on the next day he said im here in florida i stay in hotel.baby and he share some pic to me the place that he buy in florida,and he said baby im near to my Son now..i told him im happy for you sweet daddy....and he said thanks baby for coming to my life this is my last day in hotel and tomorrow im going to my new home....wen he move to his new home saturday night we caht he ask me how i am,i told him im good,he said great baby,always remember daddy loves you,and dont allow any one hurt you,make you cry be strong fight for your life and for your daughter,i told him yes Daddy you know that im good girl,only to you im bad...and he said baby im so tired and feel not good,ohh my poor daddy you need to sleep and rest,we talk tomorrow..ok baby im going to sleep be a good girl daddy going to sleep bye and i love you baby

i dont know that is the last time i talk to him...bcoz at monday night im shock someone said he pass away at sunday in the morning..i cant accept it to my self...i send him a message i told him sweet daddy if its a big joke i dont like...plss tell me its only a joke, but someone said its true..and she give me a prove....i cry cry cry its hard to me to accept it,to my life im here again im hurt again.... i always ask to God why why why my sweet daddy???? why all the people who love me was gone,why im always hurt,i feel that i dont have a right to be happy.

but i wish he come and visit me even in my dreams i want to hug him and i want to say thanks and i love you Daddy....

 R.I.P Daddy meet my sweet Daddy in Heaven love you both!!!!