Once again i find myself fucking up.... i feel as though i find the "right one".. and yet i let myself self put up these horrible walls and push them away....i know i have not been the best person....i have done my wrongs...who hasnt...no one is perfect. I feel as though i should stop searching...but yet i wanna settle and stop being lonely...how do i let these wall tumble down from all these past episodes?...i hate who i am