lUrDailyAddictionl's blog: "poetry"

ever feel like you dont belong like everyone hates you from night till dawn the 3rd wheel is hard to accept but sometimes its only for the best dont want to get into the mix of things jus feel like your being nosey all the same going everyday and feeling ignored makes you go crazi and feel unadored you sit and think what is wrong with me do i really make that big of a scene to lose everyone i have ever loved i feel like i will never rise above the emotions i feel hurt to the max i wished i didnt have a heart made of glass to where eryone can see in and take control i want to not care and not have a soul i want my heart to be ice cold so i wont feel nothing at all i dont want to have a damn care in the world i want to find that intended wall that i had up at one point in time to keep out everyone and to block all from sight it was easier to pretend that all would jus end i have my good and bad days jus like all the rest so dont juj me for what im saying for you would be the fool to assume such wrong we are only human we are not perfect so dont be annoyed by my humanly tatics for i only say how i feel i dont lie or run around and get spastic i have lost alot of people i love for what reason i cant be to shure of i wished i had my happy life back but that wont happen for the ship has wrecked i have learned i wont be the one to have happiness only darkness fills the gap the monster inside me is dwelling within the hate seeps thru from the blood within make it go away make my dreams come true can you not see the withdrawls i go thru my dream one day is to find dat man that can make all my dreams come true and i know it can maybe if i believe more and dont mistrust i might find that happiness from above the one i deserve and need to see i dont want a bad fling ill close my eyes and let the light shine thru will you be the one to make my dreams come true only time will tell and i hope its not to long to make me love like the cloud i want to be on come show me strength and the rays again make me see that it can be real and not the fake ass gleam dont want to trigger that beam so until that time has finally arrived i will sit in misery and let my heart turn ice cold to be melted down by your loving soul!