lUrDailyAddictionl's blog: "poetry"

Forever and always

Forever and Always 

we will be

 Forever and always

 Cant you see

Your stuck widd me 

till de end of time

forever and always 

you are mine

our hearts beat as one

our lives stuck like gum

Forever and Always 

our love runs like none

Soon we will be 

United as 1 

Forever and Always 

In the place of love 

nothing can bring us apart

nothing can get in the way

Forever and Always 

we will remain

So if yu ever doubt 

Just remember 

Forever and Always

 i will be around 

feeling empty feeling alone

i jus want to sit at home

crawln in a lil box under the ground

and pray that i end up drowned

the happiness i had has once left me 

the joy that i had in my heart fell apart

i dont think im ever ment to be happy

the sorrow has taken my soul up completley

i thought i found someone who can turn me round

i guess i thought rong so i found 

i gave my heart and it has been shattered

thats what i get for becoming so clouded

i actually fell in love with him

trusting and thinkin i could live again

i was so dumb for opening up 

why did couldnt i have learned so much 

the first few times i took down the wall 

and let someone in they stole it all 

you would think i would learn my lesson

am i that desperate to keep getting hurt with depression 

ik now that i wont eva win 

on a battle of nothing but pretend

i needa stop living in the fantasy world 

wake up and realize that my world wont stop the spin 

all men are the same

they all nothing but lame 

i must be the stupid blonde 

who they think they can change

im me and thats all that i am 

wont fix myself for no man in the same 

kiss my ass if you cant accept

that i dont take no shit from no one 

i wont open my heart again

dont see the point im jus gonna sin

i wont let it break again

for it takes time to get it outta the bin 

my heart is blocked from all 

no one will get past the wall  

betta take a detour and find the road 

cause this shop is closed dont want the load

so if this is to much for you to take on 

then please jus go and move on

i dont need the hurt dont want the drama 

for this is the last and from here its nothing but karma!

ever feel like you dont belong like everyone hates you from night till dawn the 3rd wheel is hard to accept but sometimes its only for the best dont want to get into the mix of things jus feel like your being nosey all the same going everyday and feeling ignored makes you go crazi and feel unadored you sit and think what is wrong with me do i really make that big of a scene to lose everyone i have ever loved i feel like i will never rise above the emotions i feel hurt to the max i wished i didnt have a heart made of glass to where eryone can see in and take control i want to not care and not have a soul i want my heart to be ice cold so i wont feel nothing at all i dont want to have a damn care in the world i want to find that intended wall that i had up at one point in time to keep out everyone and to block all from sight it was easier to pretend that all would jus end i have my good and bad days jus like all the rest so dont juj me for what im saying for you would be the fool to assume such wrong we are only human we are not perfect so dont be annoyed by my humanly tatics for i only say how i feel i dont lie or run around and get spastic i have lost alot of people i love for what reason i cant be to shure of i wished i had my happy life back but that wont happen for the ship has wrecked i have learned i wont be the one to have happiness only darkness fills the gap the monster inside me is dwelling within the hate seeps thru from the blood within make it go away make my dreams come true can you not see the withdrawls i go thru my dream one day is to find dat man that can make all my dreams come true and i know it can maybe if i believe more and dont mistrust i might find that happiness from above the one i deserve and need to see i dont want a bad fling ill close my eyes and let the light shine thru will you be the one to make my dreams come true only time will tell and i hope its not to long to make me love like the cloud i want to be on come show me strength and the rays again make me see that it can be real and not the fake ass gleam dont want to trigger that beam so until that time has finally arrived i will sit in misery and let my heart turn ice cold to be melted down by your loving soul!

my days are numbered and so are my nights 
thinking about it leaves me in fright 
i lose so much sleep tossing and turning 
dont know where i am going 
but i long for the yearning 
i want you to see what i can truley be 
age is jus a number cant you see 
im full of love and care free
why cant you love me just for me 
jus when i think i have found someone 
who truley cares the assholes have found me from somewhere 
its all a game to them i see
playing with my heart 
so fucked up for me
my mind is racing with thoughts galore
what is wrong with me i think once more
am i to old to be in this game
i cant be happy but theres no one to blame
sarrow lives beneath this frame
my days are numbered and so are my nights
i no longer live in fright 
my heart ice cold within my soul 
how could someone love me being so old 
one day maybe that man will come 
and melt my frozen heart some 
until that time i will be lonely and free
never fullfilling what should become of me 
sitting here waiting what could be 
but never the less always loveing me 
cuz my days are numbered and so are my nights
now its time for me to shut off all these lights !