seriously though. the one man I finaly alowed myself to let my guard down... the one I actualy fell in love with... dumped me for the 2nd time in 2 weeks yesterday. I'm everything he could ask for, I dont cheat, lie or mistreat him and his boys. I'm a good woman and ones like me dont come around very often. But yet even though he cares about me and I'm supposedly all that, he doesnt care about me like he thinks he should after being together over 4 months. *scratches her head* I hope he realizes what he's giving up... I know I'm pretty miserable right now.. need to heal this heartache...or rip my heart out of my chest so I dont have to deal with it anymore.
I get told repeatedly by guys how good a woman I am that I'm one of a kind and all this and that... if thats the case... why does stuff like this happen? I'm so aggravated right now and beating myself up for this and I know it wasnt my fault this time.... thats what is so hard to figure out...UGH