DB's blog: "My Thoughts As Of Now"

The warm air in my lungs

the cold breathe on my lips

it took me a long time but i finally admit

that a love lost now beats a life lost later

as i sit here waiting for my heart to play

catch up and my mind to remain under control

i patrol my emotions that get the notion

that maybe this could continue with great resolve

dont tell me its over because my heart says so

just leave and let me deal in the only way i know

was this pain more fierce or did the fire die

did the needle pierce the depth of your soul

or was your consious to numb to notice?

as my lungs lay deflated, gasping for breath

let not my heart give out let me tell you this

i will not repeat the mistakes that left me gasping for less

much less than the three words you used so careless

did it hurt, did it even sting, i hope a part of you dies

when i cross the threshold we once shared

dont you dare look back my heart reminds me

as a tear graces my cheek believe me i wont weaken

i will not fall or fail, crack under the pressure

to see your face again, to hear your lips move

will be the last thing my ears will need to hear

for i fear, nothing you can say will crack a smile.

the bells and whistles have faded, water and clever word

tainted the beauty and sweet sounds of a "love" based on lies

based on what you will see as convenience, my love based on

something i will never lay a finger on, lest i cut it off.