SaSsYLiLAngel's blog: "Dealing with the heartache"

   We all live our lives day by day. We make plans for the future without thinking that there might not be one. Two years ago our family went thru the toughest year we ever faced. In 2011 I almost lost my youngest while we where on vacation we ended up staying in Denver while Tim and Aliyah went to South Dakota because Saphires appendix ruptured, she had to have emergency surgery and was in the hospital for a few days very sick.Had I not taken her to the hospital we would have buried her. Then a month later we lost my dear baby brother. Since his death it seems like the heart and soul of our family has completely vanished.Death is so final and so sad. It makes me wonder whats the point of loving anyone when you sre going to lose them or they will lose you, those being the only 2 choices, makes you really wonder if veing cold and heartless can eliminate the pain later on. Yes to feel love is a wonderful thing weather it be from your spouse children or even a pet. But the loss of love well thats a pain that over powers the good you once felt as you know its never going to be there again. I only say this because over the last couple years my heart has become colder and guarded.