The day is done. I cannot sleep tonight.
I couldn't even look her in the eyes today. It was extremely hard to fake this attitude that life was peachy in front of JD's teachers. I was able to get through it, extremely hurt and I feel more broken than I did yesterday. I have already lost that memory of that dream; nor can I remember the feeling that came with it.
How long will this last? I know time will heal all wounds.. But I'm so tired of feeling useless. Because that's honestly how I feel. I tried three times to fix my marriage and each time I failed until I finally gave up. I couldn't please her nor could I make her happy.
I know I cannot make someone happy, but I feel like a failure because of it. I feel washed up and broken; damaged goods.
