As I said in my status this won't be sugar coated. I'm going to say what's on my mind. If you care for me at all you will understand and be there for me. If not. Than just go about your life. I'm to old for games. If I love someone it's full speed not half or when convenient. I know the difference in the idea of someone and actual love. If I am with someone I'm dedicated. And try to be. But I hate being second best. I hate broken promises. If you present yourself in a way that you like or would like for someone else to like than remain that way. I don't like players and cheaters. I love to be spoiled but not by material things. But by undivided attention. I admit I'm rough around the edges and can be difficult. But I have a huge heart that easily gets broken. At the moment I'm very much inlove with someone. But my mind's a mess and so is my heart. I been trying to heal them. But having a hard time with it.