Have you heard that song All Good Things, by Nelly Furtado? Well it’s a pretty good song I think. I know you’ve heard the expression all good things must come to an end. So at last all good things have come to an end for me. You see I was sort of dating someone. Or would you call it hanging out with her. You know I’m going with hanging out, b/c that’s what we did. Yes we did go to dinner, the movies and yes we slept in the same bed. But nothing happened we just cuddled. And besides she said it that if her ex, I guess you can call him that they were divorce, changed she would take him back in a heartbeat. You can’t just give up on four years. She gave me plenty of times to run away as she put it but I stayed. She even told me that we weren’t bf/gf that she didn’t want to get into a relationship unless she had a clear head. Wow a new one for me. Well this week she told me that her ex did tell her that he wanted to work things out. And then she asked me if I would still talk to her. I told her yes we would always be friends. Then on Friday night we went to dinner at Fridays and I told her some of the guys got in trouble for not going to PT. Well that lead to a fight. Pretty much she started to attack me and saying I was a piece of shit NCO. Wow only a month of knowing me and she figured that out usually takes people a little longer to find that out…LOL just kidding. Let’s just say I left there pissed off. Well Saturday night, I asked her to come over b/c I wanted to see her. Well we got to talking on the phone, more fight happened. This time she pretty much said I was irresponsible NCO. Really you don’t know me, you don’t know how I am at work. How can you make that call? Hmmm….she made two judgment calls interesting. Well for one I’ve taken responsibilities for my actions when I’m at work, and Hell I’ve been given paper work for them. Yeah so what I don’t make the guys do pt, who cares. They pass their PT test that’s all that matters. I never said I was perfect, Hell everyone is irresponsible in some shape and form. Well then today I texted her asking to bring me my Smallville Seasons back, when she got the chance. She writes me back saying I see how you are. What just b/c I want my DVDs back you got to get all bent out of shape for. Really no point in it, you’re done with them right and I would like to watch them myself. So she calls me up and still wants to fight, damn when does it end? I just told her that I wasn’t in the mood to fight with her, and she got all bent out of shape over that. I’m like look you’re right I’m wrong. Then she went and talked to one of her friends about it, who’s going to be an NCO in Jan, personally they have no say so. B/c really you can’t compare what we do on the flight line to what the rest of the Air Force does. We are our own little world, and on top of that don’t compare what we do to what you’ve seen in the Army. When she started attacking me, it was an attack on the other NCOs that trained me, on Arthur Coleman, Steve Ward, Jim Connors, Brian Norris, all the ones that taught me what I should do as an NCO and how I should lead. Personally I was getting tired of this fight but she wasn’t. Hell she started bring up other shit with it. Well for those of you who know me, I mean really know me (high school friends really) know how I get when I’m pissed off. Well I didn’t want to say something I might regret. I mean really how long can a fight really go on? Personally I’m tired of it all. I’m tired of hearing about her ex, hell if I can’t say something about other girls then don’t bring him up. I’m tired of her trying to change who I am, this is me take it or leave it! I don’t change for no one. I’m tired of the fight. Like I told my friend Dave, she’s making it easier for me to leave this Hell hole. So I’m going in early to work and put in for orders. It’s time for a change, leave here and never look back. I would rather be in a relationship and get hurt then not to be in a relationship and get hurt.
