HELLO ALL,
I was just trying to answer everyone's questions about what was wrong last night and today and might be for a little while longer.
Well the first thing is my money situation. Well there is none because I have none. Iam looking for a job everyday to pay my bills and support to kids and payback mom and lift all this stress Iam writting about. ok first i dont like barrowing a dime off anyone unless i can pay them back and it kills me that i cant and my mom is the worst. She has helped me out alot if it was not for her i would be out on the streets but the only thing i hate is she wont let me forget how much money she spends on me it makes me feel bad enough iam living off a 67 year old woman who cant retaire because she is working to support her son who cant support himslef I love her to death but i cried for like a week after she told me that. Also running to mailbox and hopping there is no warrent out for my arrest for child support. I know that i have been looking for a jon hardcore weather it be out on the streets or on here. It just that I guess old fashion when it comes to the whole realshonship deal but the GF has giving me alot too and I would love her if she gave it to me or not its just makes me feel i guess like less of a man.
The other reason why iam kinda upset is my son ear infections are back. He had tubes in his ears and they fell out and he was good for 2 years, then pooof this weekend he gets sick and they are back and i was going to take him to ER on saturday to and I should have but then again i though it was just the virus he had running it course and then he sipked another 103 104 temp and then i knew right then and there it was the ears and again the X did not believe me. So she took back to docs and the doc said samething. Yea and also with my kids is I have not seen my daughter for going on 3 months now and I cried on my way home from taking my son home last weekend because sweet child o mine came on by G and R witch is mine and my daughters song. Oh plus about the fever my Xs friend's daughter died of a spike of 104 so yea iam worried about that.
Other then the X BS and all and those who know me well Know all about that so i wont go there or that will get me more upset. Iam trying to stick it out and all this stress is going to end up hurtting me or even worse killing me.
But I will shut up now and get back to calling jobs and all feel free to read and comment
