Tattooed GoddessLOYAL BOMBER FAMILY MEMBER's blog: "A Rakkasan's Wife!"

Well, David left on Friday. I am burnt to a crisp on my shoulders and back and chest. My friend Lindsey was there with me saying good bye to David. We have TONS of pictures thanks to her. The reality of this deployment hasn't set in yet because some of our friends are staying with me until transportation can get their household goods. I had a great wake up call this morning. It was from Kuwait. David got in early this morning my time. It was a short call, but it was great to hear his voice. Anyhow, I am off to shower and change then off to the movies to keep my mind occupied. If you want to see pictures, message me and I will show you.

Has it already been about 13 months since they all got back? Has it really been just over a year since David and I got married? Is it already that time for the base to become desolate? Is it time for all the bags to get packed, legal documents in order, weapons fixed, and spouses to move back home? To answer all these dreadful questions in one tearful answer, the answer is "yes." Deployment is upon us here at Fort Campbell. Friends are already saying good bye and packing up their household goods. Families from all over the country are flooding the visitor centers here. Traffic is getting worse as the days go by. Millions upon millions of tears are shed every day now. Phone calls from close friends come at all hours of the day and night saying that their spouse has just got the word of the date and time they will be manifesting and then busing to the airfield to take off to Iraq or Afghanistan. Sobbing phone calls are made at all hours of the night to parents and other family members looking for support. Sleepless nights take their toll on everyone. Waiting up till god knows what time of the night and early morning just for a 2 minute phone call on the moral phones from the MWR letting loved ones know that their soldiers are safe. The nightmares of the dreaded footsteps up the front steps and seeing the Class A's and your support group delivering the worse news of all about a loved one. Spouses getting together with each other trying to pass the time of the 15 month deployment and discussing what they plan to do when their soldier gets mid tour leave for 18 days and the 30 day leave when they finally get home for good. As you can tell, I am about to go through yet another deployment. I am not looking for sympathy. Hell no. I am not looking for emails or comments saying "I am so sorry" or "God bless you for doing this. You are stronger than I could ever be." I knew what I was getting into as a Soldier's Wife. This is MY CHOICE! I stand proudly by my soldier and support him. This is our life. It's hard and takes a toll on me, but hell, someone has to do it. It's hard as hell. The first month is usually the hardest, but thankfully, I have an unbelievable support system in my life. This weekend is going to be the worst weekend ever. Friends are deploying left and right. I believe that every day this week I have said good bye or will say good bye to most of my friends. I will have at least a week of sleepless nights and it's hell. But I AM A SOLDIER'S WIFE! I AM A RAKKASAN'S WIFE! Baby, I love you so much! You and I have been through some hell in this past year and yes we both have learned a lot about marriage and compromise. I love you and will miss you from the very second you get on the bus. Be safe and come back home soon. Molly and Skittles will keep me safe and company until Krissy and J.J. get down here. I love you so very much. RAKKASAN!!! AIR ASSAULT! *~*One Hell of a Tough Little Bitch Rakkasan Wife*~*

THIS IS THE INFANTRYMANS PROMISE!!! If I ever go to war Mom, Please don't be afraid. There are some things I must do, To keep the promise that I made. I'm sure there will be some heartache, And I know that you'll cry tears, But your son is Army Infantry now, Mom, There is nothing you should fear. If I ever go to war Dad, I know that you'll be strong. But you won't have to worry, Cause you taught me right from wrong. You kept me firmly on the ground, yet still taught me how to fly. Your son is Army Infantry now Dad, I love you Hooah, Even if I die. If I ever go to war Bro, There are some things I want to say. You've always had my back, and I know it's my time to repay. You'll always be my daybreak, through all of life's dark clouds, Your brother is Army Infantry now, Bro, I promise I'll make you proud. If I ever go to war Sis, don't you worry bout me, I always looked out for you, but I can't do that anymore, Cause I'm a big bro to all in America. I love you so much and you know that, Your brother Army Infantry now Sis, So wipe your eyes, I'll be fine even if I die. If I ever go to war my Friends, We'll never be apart, Though we may not meet again, I'll hold you in my heart. Remember all the times we had, Don't let your memories cease, Your friend is Army Infantry now, Dear Friend, And I'll die to bring you peace. And when I go to heaven, And see that pearly gate, I'll gladly stand my post and wait. I'm sorry Sir I can't come in, I'm sort of in a bind, You see I'm still Infantry Sir, And So I can't, and will never, leave them behind. i tell you what if you are a soldier, sailor, airman or marine or know a soldier, sailor, ariman, or marine you better repost this

Woof....woof....lick lick, Hi Jen, I miss you! Prince has been bugging me lately..jumps on me when I am asleep....sneaks up on me.....chases me/// but I get even...I drag him around by the collar,,but he tries to scratch me. Anyway, it's pretty boring here, no one takes me for many walks, and I love to play fetch. Dad has had me on a diet since Christmas...but I am feeling friskier and I guess it was good. The weather is nice but I sure would like to see you.. Hope you will come for a few days and keep me company...it really is pretty in the back yard....Dad doesn't say much but mom cries because she misses you and knows that you are having a hard time.. Please come see me, oh and yeah you can say Hi to Prince too... Woof, woof your best friend in the world! Ranger Dog ps...write soon...I miss you.

Got this from another military spouse.. pass it on! Something happened today that will affect my family, every person I see daily, and over 200,000 others. If you were watching the news channels about three hours after the stories were posted online around 8pm EDT, you would think we were all affected by Don Imus or even Sanjaya on American Idol. But you would be wrong. The defense secretary announced today that the deployments to Iraq and Afghanistan were extended from 12 to 15 months. Maybe we missed it (we do live in Hawaii) but I doubt it. How in the world is it more important that one man made some sexist and racist remark about a basketball team and got fired? How is it more important that Sanjaya is still on American Idol? The fact is, it's not more important, especially to the three proud Army wives sitting in my living room right now or to the countless others affected by this. Some people will say "It's just three more months" and yes it is just three more months but put it into perspective. My husband will deploy at the end of this year, all we know is he won't be here for Christmas. This means he won't be here next Christmas either. In fact, the next time he will be home for Christmas our son (who is now four) will be seven years old. Fathers who missed the birth of their children could now also miss their child's first birthday as well, like my friend Jason who is currently deployed. I love that the plan says that the troops are guaranteed a year at home between deployments, as if it's a favor to us. This doesn't take away from the fact that they will be in Iraq or Afghanistan for longer than they are home. I'm sure it also doesn't take into account that while they are home they are out in the field training for weeks or months at a time. Soldiers I know who are preparing to deploy later this year are spending at least one week in the field per month and will be going for desert training for two additional months. One week per month adds up to 12 weeks a year or three months, add in that additional two months and that's five months of training. So, in the period of one year we will actually get to see our husbands a total of seven months. That doesn't even take into account going to work every day, or the 24 hour shifts they pull for other duties. I'm also happy they were so generous to pay everyone an additional $1000 per month for the extra time they'll be deployed. If you calculate that out, it averages $1.38 per hour. If you worked at a job paying $6.15 an hour, you would make an extra $3.08 per hour for overtime. So someone who flips burgers or mops floors is paid more for time and a half than our troops who will be serving their country for an extra three months. Just imagine if someone paid you $3000 to miss three months of your child's life, their first birthday, their high school graduation, your brother or sister's wedding, your 5th or 25th wedding anniversary would it be worth it? Hardly. In writing this I'm not looking for sympathy or words of encouragement. I want others to realize this is so important to so many people and affects so many lives and it is not okay. I'm not a protester or anti-war activist. I am a wife who is proud of her husband and what he does for his country. I am a wife who wants her husband home as much as possible to see his children grow up. I am a wife who thinks my husband and all the other soldiers have done their jobs and done it well and now it's time for them to come home. P.S. PASS THIS ON!!! *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*MY ADD ON!!!!!!!*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Keep the damn money! I dont want it!! Can the money replace the time that the parents loose with their children? can the money replace the first words, first steps, first holidays??? Can it replace missing the birth of your child? Can it replace the missed anniversaries?! NO!!!!! So keep the damn money! BRING THE TROOPS HOME! this war has already cost enough lives, enough missed events. yes they knew what they were doing when they joined and we knew what we would have to sacrifice when we said "I DO". But you don't have to extend the damn deployments!!

so i am around, but not as much as i used to me. my life is in shambles right now. some of you know what's going on and i am so thankfully that I have friends like you that I can talk to. I am trying to figure out who i am again, but certain people are making it hard as hell. I do not like who and what I have become. In fact, its actually scary as to who i am. I've been this person before and it almost destroyed me!!! I dont want that to happen again. SOOOO..... On that note, If you care to talk, hit me up in a message and i will do my best to explain what's going on. LEAVE ME LOVE BECAUSE RIGHT NOW I REALLY EFFIN' NEED IT!!

yeah i know i havent written much lately. but i've been busy as fuck. too much has happened in the past 2 weeks. For all my friends that i have been neglecting i am so sorry. i will try and be around more for you guys! I'm just trying to get everything in my life straightened out. right now i need to focus on me. i've been neglecting myself. I've been too preoccuppied with trying to help others with their issues and now my own life is falling to pieces around me. For those who have been there for me lately thank you so much! It means a lot to me. anyhow, here are some lyrics that hit home right now. Wish I was too dead to cry My self-affliction fades Stones to throw at my creator Masochists to which I cater You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds Wish I was too dead to care If indeed I cared at all Never had a voice to protest So you fed me shit to digest I wish I had a reason; my flaws are open season For this, I gave up trying One good turn deserves my dying You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds (Solo: Corey) Wish I'd died instead of lived A zombie hides my face Shell forgotten with its memories Diaries left with cryptic entries And you don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I'll never live down my deceit

Sgt Dustyn Wright was KIA on Thursday February 15, 2007. He was Patrolling Baghdad Streets when a car side bomb went off near a shopping center in downtown Baghdad. Killed 14 Iraqi, and 1 United States Soldier. Sgt Wright was stationed out of Ft. Bragg, NC, 82nd Airborne Division, the "All Americans.". This was Wrights 2nd Deployment. Sgt Wright is Married with 2 kids and one on the way in Sept. Please Keep Your Prayers For Sgt Wright’s Family. And Keep passing this on. Click reply to post and copy the code in the email. More Info will be Available At A Later Date Lisa Wright Myspace www.myspace.com/loving_my_soldier_dustyn Sgt. Wright Myspace www.myspace.com/45228174 R.I.P Sgt D. Wright

http://cherrytap.com/user/570113 THIS IS ONE OF MY GOOD FRIENDS THAT DIED OF OVARIAN CANCER AND SHE WILL BE MISSED BY US ALL SHE WAS A LOVING AND CARING PERSON I HAVE LOST A GREAT FRIEND SO IF U COULD REPOST AND SEND SOME LOVE THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS For one week of my life, I was touched by a pure love. A love that came from a friend that would steal my heart. To this day there is a hole in my heart. A spot I had reserved for her, she wiggled her way into my life, and I was willing to let her in. But today things are a little less brighter, a little less happier. I lost my friend, my soul mate, my happiness. I am saddened to learn that she has passed away, and I am angered that this world has lost yet another beautiful soul. But she is in a better place now, with no wars, no poverty, no prejudice. I wish I could join her, but I can't so all I have are memories......one week of my life. I love you Ashley Rest in Peace. (repost of original by 'buba,,,,aka DUCKY,, HEAD ASESINO~PREV FAMILIA,~sorry ladies off the market' on '2007-02-12 14:24:20')

I DID NOT WRITE THIS....HOWEVER IT IS TRUE!! ONLY A FEW HOURS AFTER ANNA NICOLE SMITH DIES, HER NAME AND FACE ARE PLASTERED ALL OVER THE NEWS, THE INTERNET, AND THE RADIO. BECAUSE OF HER FAME AND FORTUNE EVERYONE SEEMS TO ACT LIKE THEY'VE KNOWN HER FOR YEARS, AND ARE SO CAUGHT UP WITH THE STORY... AND YOU WILL HEAR ABOUT THIS FOR DAYS TO COME... KNOW WHAT MAKES ME SICK?? THERE ARE SOLDIERS DYING FOR YOUR COUNTRY EVERY DAY AND THEY GET A BRIEF..."FOUR MARINES KILLED IN IRAQ TODAY.."......" ANOTHER PLANE SHOT DOWN KILLING 3 AMERICAN SOLDIERS..." AND DOES ANYONE BOTHER TO MAKE NOTE OF THESE MEN AND WOMEN DYING FOR YOUR RIGHT TO BE SAD OVER ANNA NICOLE SMITH? RARELY. YES, IT'S VERY SAD THAT ANNA NICOLE SMITH DIED AT 39.... BUT THERE ARE ANOTHER 3000+ MEN AND WOMEN DYING AT A MUCH YOUNGER AGE DOING MUCH BIGGER AND BETTER THINGS THAN SELLING TRIM SPA AND HITTING EVERY TABLOID IN THE COUNTRY. THEYRE OVER THERE SELFLESSLY... DYING FOR THE GOOD OF OUR COUNTRY. IT'S SAD THAT ANNA NICOLE SMITH'S SON JUST DIED... BUT THERE ARE MEN AND WOMEN OVERSEAS WHO DONT GET THE PROPER GOODBYES TO FAMILY WHO HAVE GONE BEFORE THEM BECAUSE THEY ARE DEFENDING THE U.S. IT'S SAD THAT ANNA NICOLE SMITH IS LEAVING BEHIND A NEWBORN BABY... BUT THERE ARE MEN AND WOMEN OUT THERE WHO HAVEN'T SEEN THEIR SONS, DAUGHTERS, HUSBANDS, WIVES, FRIENDS, AND EXTENDED FAMILY AND THERE'S A CHANCE THEY MIGHT NEVER SEE THEM AGAIN... START WATCHING CNN AND SEE WHO THE REAL HEROS ARE IN THIS WORLD... BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH ANNA NICOLE SMITH MADE A FEW HUNDERED SKINNY, THERE ARE MEN AND WOMEN FIGHTING DAY AND NIGHT FOR MILLIONS TO LIVE FREELY IN THE UNITED STATES. IF YOU AGREE JUST SIMPLY COPY & PASTE IT INTO A BULLETIN THEN HIT POST!