yeah i know i havent written much lately. but i've been busy as fuck. too much has happened in the past 2 weeks. For all my friends that i have been neglecting i am so sorry. i will try and be around more for you guys! I'm just trying to get everything in my life straightened out. right now i need to focus on me. i've been neglecting myself. I've been too preoccuppied with trying to help others with their issues and now my own life is falling to pieces around me. For those who have been there for me lately thank you so much! It means a lot to me.
anyhow, here are some lyrics that hit home right now.
Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
(Solo: Corey)
Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries
And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I'll never live down my deceit
