J Wade's blog: "Poems?"

It's been a rough year, there have been times when I barely made it through.

But I don't regret the decision I made by leaving you.

You broke my heart and blamed it all on me.

Why would you cut that deep and act like you deserve to be free?

You tied me up for years and made me feel like shit.

It makes me so fuckin angry just thinking about it.

I don't cry over you, and I never will...

I just know what to accept and how to feel.

I've never felt better than I do at the end of this year.

The further forward I move, the clearer I see what I used to fear.

I'll just keep beating it into submission to continue my new journey.

It's getting easier to push away what hurt me.

So go on thinking you made the right choices in life.

You couldn't make any man happy by being a good wife.

You don't know the first thing about being a strong woman.

You'll never take a second to wonder what happened in that moment.

I'll be free to be the man I'm supposed to be.

I don't care what anyone believes I should be, I know who I am, a good man, I can see.

Maybe someday, I'll find the right woman I can finally treat like a queen.

It'll take time, but it'll be the greatest love I've ever seen.

Waiting with someone while they build a simple life together.

That can sometimes lead to greater emotions, maybe lasting forever.

I will keep my conversation going, all the while waiting.

While the fire I had to tread through is quickly fading.