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I can't say if I am happy that the Memorial Day weekend, or not. The last two weeks have been a real roller coaster with my emotions.
Friday, May 21, Grandma was checked into the ER due to abdominal pain, three days later we find out that her colon cancer back, but this time in two different places. And with all of the the in the hospital and trying to keep family back in Drexel Hill, PA, informed, tempers flair because they don't understand Grandma wants to talk about anything but what is going on. It all takes a lot out of a person.
At the same time I was trying to be strong for my grandma I had an ex come back into my life, and after meeting up with him for some chatting only but after wards I started thinking and having questions. That always gets me into trouble, come to find out that he never really liked me. Talk about a big 180. I still don't understand how a guy can sit there and spend so much time with you and make all the first moves without having like the girl, not even just a little.
On top of all of this, I am now going on one year and four months without being able to find work, and that means money trouble, and God knows, that right there is signs for stress and depression, plus with all the for mention I am done! Done dealing with family members that aren't in my life on a daily basis, done with guys and their meaningless relationships, and done with the world not wanting me to be back in it.
One night this three day weekend I am going to take two of my Excedrin PMs and sleep, really sleep. Then on Tuesday I will go to my job interview and praying to God, if there even is a God anymore, I will get the job.
Hope everyone has a good and safe Memorial Day weekend!!!
