My Life, My World

Lesson Learned!

2013-03-26T22:13:22-07:00

Never keep a guy on the back burner, because even though you tell him everything that is going on in your life, he won't tell you half of the crap going on in his life.

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On the flip side of it all, the guy on the front burner has never once lied to you, or not told you anything when asked. I have NO idea how the guy on the front burner puts up with me, makes me love him more.

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This life would kill me, if I didn't have you.

First

2012-12-16T22:55:10-08:00

How many years have to go by,
How many tears do I have to cry,
How many fights do we have to have,
For you to understand. . .

I want to come first.

I'm done having to ask,
I'm done having to tell,
I'm done waiting around. . .

I want to come first.

Please put me first once,
Or twice,
To show me you still care,
To show me you want me.

I feel as though,
This is all one sided,
It hurts to think. . .

I will never come first.

What Can I Do

2012-11-12T17:53:14-08:00

You tell me you love me,
But I haven't felt it for awhile.

You tell me it is just a game,
Then why aren't you playing with me?

What can I do,
To feel your love again?

What can I do,
To get you to play the game with me?

Or is this just asking for too much?

Please let me know,
Because I can't go on living in limbo.

My 2nd Job

2012-10-12T10:17:40-07:00

Hey Everyone, tomorrow starts the Mid-October 2012 Brochure! I wanted to share a video of all the great products that will be on sale. For even more information please feel free to call or E-Mail me.

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RE-POSTING: BBW Ugh ~~ http://fubar.com/blog/331898/1122891~~

2012-08-27T10:08:51-07:00

BBW *Ugh* ~*~�http://fubar.com/blog/331898/1122891~*~

Over the years I have heard all the names and been left out of all sorts of things due to the size of my clothes, but lately I have really been thinking about a term use on the internet that I believe is overly used. BBW, big beautiful woman.

There are many different people in this world of all different shapes, sizes, and colors, and just because you are of one of them does not mean you are more beautiful then the person you stand next to. So why is it that because you are a big, plus size, woman you are automatically beautiful? This I do not understand, but I am sure someone out there in the world is someone who does understand it, because the term has came to be and very popular at that.

I, personally really dis like the term. I don't think people should drawl attention to themselves by putting labels on themselves and/or others. Yes I am a bigger woman, yes I shop at plus size stores, but I don't want to be called BBW. If a man (or woman) tells me at the get go that they like my, 'big sexy ass,' I am going to delete the message and not look back. Tell me I'm hot, I'm sexy, I'm beautiful, but don't bring my size into, that just counteract the complement you were trying to make in the first place.

So I am going to urge the fine people of this site to stop using the term BBW, big beautiful woman, because it counteract the complement you are trying to pay to the woman.

You. . . I. . .

2012-02-09T23:20:47-08:00

You told me you missed me
I told you good night.

You told me you luv me
I told you I missed you.

You told me you loved me
I told you I luv ya.

You didn't say anything
And I told you I loved you.

It's been three years,
And I can finally say it, before or after,
But whenever I say it,
It will always be true.

I love you.

Love, Want

2012-01-26T12:37:31-08:00

The person I love,
The person I want most of all,
I can't have.

But I will go on loving him,
And wanting him,
Just the same.

Because someday down the road,
I just might get to have him,
Even if it is for a minute.

Until someday comes,
I will go on loving,
And wanting,
The man I cannot have.

I Don't

2012-01-23T09:15:53-08:00

I don't feel beautiful,
I feel ugly,
I don't feel loved,
I feel used.

Ugly, because you don't
You won't,
Let anyone know about us.

Used, because after sex,
You won't say you love me.

So please change those two things,
And make me really feel beautiful,
Make me feel loved,
Like you say I am any other time.

Need

2012-01-22T21:08:27-08:00

I need to walk away,
I need to get out,
I need to learn my lesson.

I walked away once,
But I came right back,
Back to the emptiness,
Back to the loneliness.

I have to learn my lesson,
You aren't going to love me,
Love me the way I love you.

Please try to help me,
Tell me walking away is for the best.
Tell me getting out will hurt less,
Hurt less then it does to stay.

Becasue staying is killing me,
And that is why I need to walk away,
Why I need to get out,
And most of all why I need to learn my lesson.

Doing Things, Thinking Things

2012-01-21T17:19:03-08:00

If I've said too much,
If I've asked for too much,
Then I am sorry.

I've said I was never going to love again,
I've said I was never going to want another man,
And now here you are.

I'm doing things,
And thinking of things,
I shouldn't be.

I'm sorry if I put you on the spot,
I'm sorry if I am coming on too strong,
I just want to know where I stand,
If I stand anywhereWith you.