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It's funny how we look at others and think how wise they are, or how much more someone might know than we do. When the reality is that we are all wise in our own way. What makes those that seem wise to us different from ourselves is that they lived more. It's not always about how long someone went to school, or how long they've been on their job, or even how old they are, but it is about how much they've lived. It is living that brings experience, and experience that brings wisdom. True a five year old shouldn't know more than a Fifty year old , but they will if that Fifty year old had never done more than gone to work each day , and watch television every night. I have had the privilege of doing things and going places that has given me knowledge that is immeasurable. It is those experiences that make it easy to help others, but I never forget that there is always more for me to learn, move life to live, more people to meet, and more places to see. Yes, there will always be someone wiser than me, and I seek him or her out to help make the road not so rough for me. Just as I know that it is my duty to share with those that ask for my help or may need my knowledge because at the end of the day isn't that what we're here for, to share this journey with and make it as easy as we can for each other?? Life is so full of experiences ,changes, up's and down's. Each day brings us a new adventure, maybe not the one we want or expect, but definitely the one's that we need. Each day we have the opportunity to grow wiser. Are you experiencing life or are you watching life pass you by???

Have you ever sat in your room in the solitude and silence, looking at the ceiling and think things through? Thought of things you should have said but didn't. Things you could have said, but were too stubborn to reveal. Maybe you missed a chance to say, "I'm sorry", or "I love you". Have you ever replayed an argument over in your head and wished your life had the [edit][undo] feature our computers have? I learned long ago; life is filled with regrets. How we handle them is what determines the strength of our character. Do you run from your problems, bury your head in the sand and wish they went away on their own? Or do you summon the testicular or ovarial fortitude and face the problem you created head on? My issue is my mouth. Those of you, who know me, may not be surprised by this claim. I can flay an individual with a mere glance and a well placed insult. I learned this defense mechanism at a very young age. I'll either try to kill you with a mean glare that will skin you alive, or shred you to pieces with my words. The problem with this defense mechanism is that I don't always think before I speak when my buttons get pushed. For example: I once went to my local grocery store with my kids after working a long day at the office. I remember it well... I had purchased about $80.00 worth of groceries, after everything was scanned, I handed the cashier my debit card. She informed me their teller machine was down, so I did the next best thing... I started to write a check. She says (loud enough for the people in the next lane to hear) "MA'AM, YOU CAN'T WRITE A CHECK HERE... DON'T YOU HAVE ANY CASH!!??", to which I replied (very calmly, I might add), "If I had the cash, I wouldn't be writing a check or trying to use my debit card, now would I?" She rolled her eyes at me, and let out a *SIGH* before saying, "Why don't you go down the street to the bank's ATM. I suppose I can hold your cart for you. That's when it happened... the flap that goes from my ass to my mouth permanently lodged in the OPEN position and I let her have it. I very calmly and very succinctly told her to shove my cart straight up her pooper. Then I grabbed my purse and my keys and marched out the door. My kids almost pissed their pants laughing as we made our way to the car. Guess I've done a pretty good job not showing my ass in front of the kids. They still talk about it to this day. The problem that I encounter is when I lash out without thinking to those I love or who are dear to me. They may do something unintentional, or might be having a bad day and lash out at me, and I'll let the forked tongue fly. The nice thing about online friendships is that you can edit your words before speaking them. We don't have that benefit in the real world. We can't take back or edit the things that fly out of our mouths. Normally I'm pretty laid back and let things slide off my back. I try and find humor in all things at all times. However; we all have our limits. When mine is met and crossed, my Irish blood gets a'boilin, my ears turn red, my jaw clenches enough to turn my back molars to dust, and I let her rip... What I think we all need to learn to do is watch what we say in the fit of anger. Who will our words hurt and how will our words be taken? Is the damage done irrevocable? And most of all, what example are we setting if our children observe our actions? What do YOU do when you're pissed? Do you lash out like a banshee or do you just climb the nearest clock tower?

I still dont have this life thing figured out,but what I've learned is that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.At the end of the day the only people who can judge me are myself and god. .... I've learned that making a" living " is not the same thing as "making a life". I realize everyday that you shouldnt go through life with a catchers mitt on both hands, you need to be able to throw something back. I've learned that when ever I decide something with an open heart I usually make the right decision. I'm a hopeless romantic and believe in TRUE LOVE and will stop at nothing to keep those I care about close to my heart. I dont settle.... with anything ever! I'm an all or nothing kinda gal. I've learned that people will forget what you said people and will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Life is funny, so I laugh at it.When it's rough,I just get through it. The darker the night.... The brighter the stars... Someone once told me that every step you take is one away from where you use to be, so walk wisely! I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward. I am proud of who I am over evey decision I've made and where see myself going.. I will never change who I am... Look beyond what you see on the out side because it is whats inside all of us that will matter in the end! Be the person that people remember and the person no one will forget....I find that in life people always get what they deserve in the end regardless if it's good or bad.Firm believer in karma. I get told alot of the time that nice people finish last but we dont, we finish on top, just takes us a little longer. I think everything in life happens for a reason. I am a very proud mom and my family is my world, Can't even imagine life with out any of them. My world is a little hectic but I manage to make time for my family and friends. Hope and faith comes from love with no faith there will be no love!

Today I was reflecting back on being a mother and what it means to me. As I closed my eyes in thought, I was reminded of the day I found out I was pregnant with my oldest son, Corey Little did I know, but this was the beginning of the most incredible journey that I have ever experienced. Being a mother. So, being a mother to me, is the most amazing gift that I could have ever been given. How these 4 kids could have come into my life and changed it in such a way that I can't even describe. They are the reason I breathe. I have never loved like this before. So to my 2 sons and 2 daughters, thank you for loving me. You are my pride and joy and I thank God every single day that I have been blessed to be your Mom.

Lord Jesus, your Word declares that if I delight myself in you, if I enjoy and seek your pleasure above mine, you'll give me the desires of my heart (Psalms 37:4). Desiring a husband is neither evil nor selfish because marriage is honorable (Hebrews 13:4). At the beginning of creation, you proclaimed, "It is not good that man should be alone" and then you created Eve to be a sutiable partner for Adam (Genesis 2:18). In the name of Jesus, I ask that you would protect the husband -a suitable partner you have chosen for me. Because the covenant of marriage is sacred (Mark 10:9), I ask for a man of God. Please give me a husband whose love for me is only outmatched by his love for you; a man who will cherish me and build me up (Proverbs 31:28); a man who will honor me (1 Peter 3:7) and our marriage vows; a man who will be a good father and provider; a man whom I will be attracted to physically, emotionally and spiritually; a man who will love me as Christ loved the church (Ephesians 5:25). Keep me from attaching myself to another man out of desperation. I will not settle for a relationship that's second best, convenient, or one that feeds my insecurities. Guard my purity and give me the patience to wait. And when I meet him confirm to me that he is the one. Release from me the baggage of past realationships, and prepare me for the man You have chosen to be my husband. Free me from any hindrances to a healthy and Godly marriage: insecurities, habitual sins, selfishness, and emotional hurts. Dispel my unrealistic expectations that set me up for disappointment. I place my trust in you rather than my partner. In this period of waiting, I will look to you alone to be my companion and best friend. You are the one who redeems my life from the pit, who crowns me with love and compassion,who satisfies my desires with good things (Psalm 103:4-5). I will not be anxious, but as I present my requests to you, flood me with the peace that surpasses all understanding so my heart and mind are guarded in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:6,7). In this request, I commit myself to trust you and do good, to dwell in the land and feed on your faithfulness. I commit my way to you and trust that you will bring it to pass (Psalm 37:35).

Here's something I have been thinking about for a while......KARMA Is there really such a thing....?? Think about it. some people go through life being mean,selfish,inconsiderate and intentionally hurting people.....but they always seem to be on top of the world. Does the nice guy always come last????, or does life really give you what you put out?? As Justin Timberlake sings "what goes around comes around", I sometimes wonder if that is true?? One thing I am learning is that we have no control when it comes to Time....Because I am at the stage in life where no matter what has been done to make your life difficult or what a person has done to impact your life negatively.....LET IT GO!!! Because KARMA can strike at any time or point in life! Do you ever find yourself second guessing yourself before you do something.....?? One thing for sure is every decision we make in life causes a reaction. So I will say I am trying to live my life with the moto "Do on to others as you would do on to yourself"... We sometimes we lose sight on the fact that we only live once.......So as long as we can live our daily lives knowing we are living for the moment & filling our place in this world without using our energy in a negative way to effect anyone.....I really do believe life will be great to us!! Just thought I would share some of my thoughts.........please feel free to let me know what you think. sometimes we wait to see karma come back at the ones who hurt us ......but I truly believe there is true blessings in every lesson. so use all the the energy to move you to the next level..... I am still going to be the better person always in every situation........thanks for readin. Stay positive and move forward with passion.

Do dreams have meanings?..The answer is YES...I read this earlier and had to post it.. Dream unifies the body, mind, and spirit. It provides you with insight into ourselves and a means for self-exploration. In understanding your dreams, you will have a better understanding and discovery of your true self. Below are just a list of some dreams and their meanings. Falling~Falling dreams are another theme that is quite common in the world of dreams. Contrary to a popular myth, you will not actually die if you do not wake up before your hit the ground during a fall. As with most common dream themes, falling is an indication of insecurities, instabilities, and anxieties. You are feeling overwhelmed and out of control in some situation in your waking life. This may reflect the way you feel in your relationship or in your work environment. You have lost your foothold and can not hang on or keep up with the hustle and bustle of daily life. When you fall, there is nothing that you can hold on to. You more or less are forced toward this downward motion without any control. This lost of control may parallel a waking situation in your life. Falling dreams also often reflect a sense of failure or inferiority in some circumstance or situation. It may be the fear of failing in your job/school, loss of status, or failure in love.You feel shameful and lack a sense of pride. You are unable to keep up with the status quo or that you don't measure up. According to Freudian theory, dreams of falling indicate that you are contemplating giving into a sexual urge or impulse. You maybe lacking indiscretion. Chased~ Chase dreams often stem from feelings of anxiety in your walking life. The way we respond to anxiety and pressure in real life is typically manifested as a chase dream. Running is an instinctive response to physical threats in our environment. Often in these dream scenarios, you are being pursued by some attacker, who wants to hurt or possibly kill you. You are running away, hiding, or trying to outwit your pursuer. Chase dreams may represent your way of coping with fears, stress or various situations in your waking life. Instead of confronting the situation, you are running away and avoiding it. Ask yourself who is the one chasing you and you may gain some understanding and insight on the source of your fears and pressure. The pursuer or attacker who is chasing you in your dream may also represent a part of yourself. Your own feelings of anger, jealousy, fear, and possibly love, can assume the appearance of threatening figure. You may be projecting these feelings onto the unknown chaser. Next time you have a chase dream, turn around and confront your pursuer. Ask them why they are chasing you. One may be consumed by their own anger, jealousy, love, or self-destructive behavior. For example, you may be drinking too much or exhibiting open hostility toward others around you. You may subconsciously be threatened by these actions which have been jeopardizing your relationships and/or career. Your dreams are a way of calling attention to these self-destructive actions Naked ~Becoming mortified at the realization that you are walking around naked in public, is often a reflection of your vulnerability or shamefulness. You may be hiding something and are afraid that others can nevertheless see right through you. Metaphorically clothes are a means of concealment. With clothes, you can hide your identity or be someone else. But without them, everything is hanging out for all to see. You are left without any defenses.The dream may telling you that you are trying to be something that you really are not. Or that you are fearful of being ridiculed and disgraced. If you are in a new relationship, you may have some fears or apprehension in revealing your true feelings. Nudity also symbolizes being caught off guard. Finding yourself naked at work or in a classroom, suggests that you are unprepared for a project at work or school. You may be uninformed in making a well-formed decision. With all eyes on you, you have this fear of having some deed brought to public attention. You fear that people will see through your true self and you will be exposed as a fraud or a phony. Many times, when you realize that you are naked in your dream, no one else seems to notice. Everyone else in the dream is going about their business without giving a second look at your nakedness. This implies that your fears are unfounded; no one will notice except you. You may be magnifying the situation and making an issue of nothing. On the other hand, such dreams may mean your desire (or failure) to get noticed. Teeth Are Falling Out ~Dreams that your teeth are falling out are the most common dream. Scenarios include having your teeth crumbling in your hands or your teeth falling out one by one with just a light tap.Such dreams are not only horrifying and shocking, but often leaves the dreamer with a lasting image of the dream. So what does it mean? One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxiety about your appearance and how others perceive you. Sadly, we live in a world where good looks are valued highly and your teeth play an important role in conveying that image. Teeth are used in the game of flirtations, whether it be a dazzling and gleaming smile or affectionate necking. These dreams may stem from a fear of your sexual impotence or the consequences of getting old. Teeth are an important feature of our attractiveness and presentation to others. Everybody worries about how they appear to others. Caring about our appearance is natural and healthy. Demons ~To see demons in your dream, represents ignorance, negativity, distress or your shadow self. It also forewarns of overindulgence and letting lust give way to your better judgment. As a result, your physical and mental health may suffer. To dream that you are possessed by demons, indicates ultimate helplessness. Diving ~To dream that you are diving into clear water, signifies an end to an embarrassing situation. Although you may experience some temporary setbacks, things will surely look up. Additionally, this dream may mean that you are trying to get to the bottom of a current situation and the root of your problems or feelings. It may also refer exploration of your unconscious. To dream that you are diving into muddy water, signifies that you will suffer anxiety from the path of your affairs. To see others diving in your dream, represents psychological and emotional balance. Dog ~To see a dog in your dream, indicate a skill that you have ignored or forgotten, but needs to be activated. Alternatively, dogs may symbolize intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. Your own values and intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and succeed. If the dog is vicious and/or growling, then it signifies some inner conflict within yourself. It may indicate betrayal and untrustworthiness. If the dog is dead or dying, then it indicates a loss of a good friend. Alternatively, it represents a deterioration of your instincts. Drinking~To dream that you are drinking water, represents spiritual refreshment. You will find resolution by looking within yourself and your past. To dream that you are drinking alcohol, denotes that you are seeking either pleasure or escape. In particular, if you are drinking wine, then it is symbolic of a divine power. Waiting ~To dream that you are waiting, is indicative of issues of power/control and feelings of dependence/independence, especially in a relationship. Consider how you feel in the dream while you were waiting. If you are patient, then you know things will happen at their own pace. If you are impatient, then it may mean that you are being too demanding or that your expectations are too high. Walking ~To dream that you are walking with ease, represents the way you are moving through life and progress toward your goals. Consider your destination. To dream that you have difficulties walking, indicates that you are reluctant and hesitant in proceeding forward in some situation. You may also be trying to distance yourself from certain life experiences. The difficulty in walking is a reflection of your current situation and the obstacles that you are experiencing. Sad~To dream that you are sad, suggests that you need to learn from your disappointments and make yourself happy. Try not to dwell on the negative. Key ~To see a key in your dream, symbolizes opportunities, access, control, secrets, or responsibilities. You may be locking away your own inner feelings and emotions. To dream that you lose your keys, signifies your fear of losing your position or status in life. You may have lost control of yourself. It may also foretells of unexpected changes and unpleasant adventures. If you give your key away, then it suggests that you have given up control of some situation or responsibility. To dream that you find keys, signifies that you have found a solution to a problem. To see broken keys in your dream, signifies many quarrels and possibly a break-up. cars ~ Cruising along, going somewhere, a journey. Out of control: Not in control of circumstances or of one self. deceased ~The deceased often come to comfort those they left behind. :They bring messages and convey the notion that everything is OK. eating food ~ This may be an indicator that the dreamer is concerned about a weight problem or eating disorder. It may be a health warning to draw attention to one's eating habits or weight problem. hair ~ Own hair falling out: Sense of having no control over a situation. Other's hair, seeing them as losing stature or importance in one's view. Real hair problem: Continuation of same. kissing ~ Someone you like and want: wish fulfillment. A faceless person: your basic desire being met. Someone you know casually and not romantically: recognition of harmonious vibrations. A celebrity: trying to boost your self worth. Adulterous passionate overtones: If you already have a mate, it may be time to spice up the romance. If you don't, its wish fulfillment. money ~ Winning or finding: Makes your financial situation easier to deal with. May be a precognitive signal. Raise your expectation, something is in the air. ocean ~ Deepest foundation in a spiritual sense. The source and depth of spiritual feeling. search ~ Search and not find: Instills the need to find something that is lacking within. Can be spiritual or need for self-examination. Search and find: Signal of accomplishment and self-capability. sex ~ The most powerful instinct in the human psyche. Satisfy a natural desire when sex is absent in waking life. With someone you like platonically: Affirming a close relationship. With someone you do not like: Time to moderate those negative feelings about them. With the same sex: Can be yourself dealing with your male/ female counterpart. The part of you that you don't like. school ~ A place where one works out situations with a feeling of being on familiar ground, a controllable situation. Can resolve issues never done in school or use those old solutions to apply to current situation. For teens it’s the backdrop for many social issues. snake~ An recurring issue that has not been resolved yet. Can involve treachery or sense of betrayal.

I got this in an email from a friend who of course changed it..so I changed it..LOL MAN: Where have you been all my life? BARB: Hiding from you. MAN: Haven't I seen you someplace before? BARB: Yes, that's why I don't go there anymore. MAN: Is this seat empty? BARB: Yes, and this one will be if you sit down. MAN: Your place or mine? BARB: Both. You go to yours, and I'll go to mine. MAN: So, what do you do for a living? BARB: I'm a female impersonator. MAN: Hey baby, what's your sign? BARB: Do not enter. MAN: How do you like your eggs in the morning? BARB: Unfertilized. MAN: Your body is like a temple. BARB: Sorry, there are no services today. MAN: I would go to the end of the world for you. BARB: But would you stay there? MAN: If I could see you naked, I'd die happy. BARB: If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing. MAN: If I could rearrange the alphabet I'd put u and i together BARB: Really, I'd put f and u together

If the world is our oyster then should time or distance keep two people apart? des·ti·ny[des-tuh-nee]–noun, plural -nies. the predetermined, usually inevitable or irresistible, course of events. Can this be true? I do believe that everything that happens in our lives leads us to this exact moment. But this is where I waiver from the definition. I believe everyday we have a choice, maybe the choice isn't as clear as we would like but we do choose. Not choosing to make a choice is still choosing. For the sake of indulgence, let's say that we are aware of ourselves and are living our lives with intent and integrity and are able to recognize an ultimate destiny. The free will to choose is there. Do you choose? Yes, of course we all want to choose ultimate. But like everything there is an element of risk. Nothing is free. To what means are we then willing to go to to realize our ultimate destiny? What is our mission in life? Here is the quandary. When given the opportunity to actualize destiny, do you go for it at all cost? Should distance, finances, social obligations, societal values and beliefs as to what is right keep us from throwing caution to the wind and just going for it? I think I just answered my own dilemma, I actually knew the answer all along, I suppose it helps to see it all laid out in front of me like this. I say YES, YES,YES! Go for it, a path that presents itself as ultimate is supreme. What is more important to our well being than love and acceptance? More flexible life patterns could . . . "nurture and renew our spirits through opportunities to actualize personal dreams"

I found this and yes I know,Im cheesy :D I value my friendships more than most people and I have a hard time letting people walk away. I'm one of those people that believes that you make efforts to maintain your friendships and don't allow them to die because of time, distance, etc.. In re-reading this piece, it does put it into a different perspective and makes it easier to believe that the age old concept that all things are for a reason. People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one that is, you will know what to do for that person or you will understand what that relationship was meant for while it was a part of your life. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ""When people come into your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend.......and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, and their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season! LIFETIME relationships teach you LIFETIME lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind, but friendship is clairvoyant."" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Whether you were a REASON, a SEASON, or a LIFETIME, thank you for being a presence in my life !