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Her hair was up in a pony tail,
her favorite dress tied with a bow.Today was Daddy's Day at school,
and she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her,
that she probably should stay home.Why the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say.What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today.But still her mother worried,
for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
she tried to keep her daughter home.But the little girl went to school
eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees;
a dad who never calls.There were daddies along the wall in back,
for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
anxious in their seats
One by one the teacher called a student from the class.To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
every child turned to stare.Each of them was searching,
for a man who wasn't there.
"Where's her daddy at?"
she heard a boy call out."She probably doesn't have one,"
another student dared to shout.
And from somewhere near the back,
she heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
too busy to waste his day."
The words did not offend her,
as she smiled up at her Mom.And looked back at her teacher,
who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back,
slowly she began to speak.And out from the mouth of a child,
came words incredibly unique.
"My Daddy couldn't be here,
because he lives so far away.But I know he wishes he could be,
since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.All about my daddy,
and how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories
he taught me to ride my bike.He surprised me with pink roses,
and taught me to fly a kite.
We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.And though you cannot see him.I'm not standing here alone.
"Cause my daddy's always with me,
even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
he'll forever be in my heart"
With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.Feeling her own heartbeat,
beneath her favorite dress.
And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads,
her mother stood in tears.Proudly watching her daughter,
who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for the love
of a man not in her life.Doing what was best for her,
doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down,
staring straight into the crowd.She finished with a voice so soft,
but its message clear and loud.
"I love my daddy very much,
he's my shining star.And if he could, he'd be here,
but heaven's just too far
You see he was a firefighter
and died just this past year
When airplanes hit the towers
and taught Americans to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes,
and she saw him there that day.
And to her mothers amazement,
she witnessed with surprise
A room full of daddies and children,
all starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they saw before them,
who knows what they felt inside.Perhaps for merely a second,
they saw him at her side.
"I know you're with me Daddy,"
to the silence she called out.And what happened next made believers,
of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it,
for each of their eyes had been closed.But there on the desk beside her,
was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
by the love of her shining star.And given the gift of believing,
that heaven is never too far.
They say it takes a minute to find a special
person, an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them, but then an entire
life to forget them.
She is your place of comfort
when you are scared
Her smile can take
your breath away
She is the warm and loving
light that takes the
darkness away
Her eyes like diamonds
For everytime you look you
lose yourself in them
She has the power to stop your world
with her love which is
strong and pure
For who ever she may chose
is blessed for sure
My dark angel, shelter me in the darkness of your truth, hide me from th blinding light of the naive and innocent, protect me from the evils of the ignorant,..help me to fight away my demons, ..for I put my heart in your keeping, my soul within your reach..waste not what is left within this fallen one....
She loves me and i can feel the love, she is such a amazing peroson and i am so lucky to have her as my angel..
Ok.. as everone who are friends with me know, i dont ask for much on here.. but this is something i would really like for yll to do.. right now there is a contest going on inmy lounge and i need to get as many people to join and say they was sent by me.. plzzz join and help me out.. here is the link for the lounge..thanks :)
Guest_desireeboo1: hey
Guest_desireeboo1: so u have a girlfriend?
Bynar: nope
Bynar: no gf
Guest_desireeboo1: can i be ur gf
Bynar: and how old are you?
Guest_desireeboo1: 26
Bynar: wow
Bynar: im 28
Guest_desireeboo1: so i can be ur gf
Bynar: hmmm
Guest_desireeboo1: its a no isnt it
Bynar: not yet lol.. im still thinkin about it..
Bynar: you dont even know me but you want to be my gf..
Guest_desireeboo1: yes we can get to know each other
Bynar: i just added you to my friends list
Bynar: ok, so we can get to know each other..
Guest_desireeboo1: ok
Guest_desireeboo1: u start
Bynar: what do you want to know about me?
Guest_desireeboo1: everything
Bynar: ok, i am 6'5, 200lbs.. i like baseball, and football.. i have two kids i cant see anymore, i love amtgard.. im a gamer, and love watchin movies
Guest_desireeboo1: im 5'6, 137lbs, i like basketball, and baseball. im indian, and i am a gamer
Bynar: hmmm
Guest_desireeboo1: uh
Bynar: what color hair?
Guest_desireeboo1: light golden brown
Bynar: i have some pics of me in my photo album labeled bynar
Guest_desireeboo1: ok
Guest_desireeboo1: soare u thinking about me being ur gf?
Bynar: before i do.. i would like to see a pic...
fisrt of, i almost break my left thumb, twice.. the nail was half way bent back, then my pinky on my left hand was smashed, then a splinter in my left hand, almost twisted my right knee out, then i found out that i might end up in jail.. goin to lose i dont know how much of my money the sec i get out of basic.. i havent got to talk to amber in almost 3 weeks and i cant be with the person i deeply love.. what is goin to happen next... i fuckin hate my life and there is no gettin away from it.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i am now gettin better with the fact that i cant be with my wife.. i am now done with tryin to get her back, she doesnt want me and i am accepting that fact.. i am now talkin with other people and its helpin me move on and leave her behind... i am better off now and in a way, i am happy.. i am still willing to help out my exwife get back on her feet, even if we cant be together, i dont want her and our boys to struggle... i will be leaving to go to basic sometime soon and once i am out, things will be eaiser with my life.. and once i get my place on post, i will start dating again.. unless i find somoene who wants to get with me before i go..i am goin to take all this one day at a time and be the loving person i am now..maybe one day i will find that special someone who will want the me who i am now.. i know things will get better so i am done with the heart broken heart of mine.. time to enjoy the freedom i have...
i can careless about anything anymore.. the only person who ment the world to me just gave up on me and keeping us as a family.. i see now that she doesnt love me, she is nothing but a fake and i will not care or love someone who wont love or care for me back.. i am done with the family breaker and i know one day she will see that she could have a wonderful life with me but by then, it will be to late.. she had her chance and now that chance is gone.. its time for me to leave her behind and all the bad things she has been doing to me.. even though my love is strong for her, i wont put myself through the bullshit she is puttin me through..
its time for me to live my life without someone here to care for me.. time to learn to live life on my own...
For the past 3 months, my wife and I have been spilt apart.. she wants nothing to do with me, which i can kinda understand.. me and her have been together for 5 years and most (90%) of the time, i was a shity husband, and father to our boys..
about 6 months ago, i left to go to CA so i could try to get a job, and move them there to better our lives.. while i was there, i started to see just how bad i was to them, and i started changing my ways, betterin myself for me, and my family.. while i was there, she left me cause she didnt think i was changing, which was a mistake.. so i came back to Ar, so i could be closer to them.. granted, i have only got to see them 3 times since i been back, i have been proving to her day after day that i have changed and that i am a better person.. its hard to do that over a comp and the phone and i really hate it cause she cant see the change in me, i have tried and tried to show her but nothing..
i can understand alittle why she thinks i am lieing because she has left me 3 times in the past and everytime she came back, i would change and be good but i would fade back (alittle, not all the way) to being the asshole after like 2 weeks.. but things are different this time.. i have been a loving and careing father to our boys and been tryin to prove to her that i love her deeply and this has been goin on for about 2 3/4 months now, everyday..and i will not stop, i hate the person i was and refuse to be that way ever again.. i know the only way for her to accept the change and believe that i have changed is for her to be around me all the time.. ( now, to the point of this blog)..
she has been showin nothing but hate towards me and its tearin my world apart, i hate what she has become but i dont care how much pain, how bad she is to me, i will always love her deeply, my heart will always belong to her... i will keep tryin to prove to her that i do love her, that she will be happy with me cause i dont want to lose her, my life will be incomplete without her in it.. she is the air i breath and the dreams i see when i sleep..so with that said, i will go through what ever it takes for me to win her heart back, i wont let go of the love i have for her...
so SIN, if you see this, I love you with every being of my soul and i wish you would love me again...i dont want to live my life without your love... like i said to you before, i would lay my life on the line for you and our boys without question cause my life is worthless without you and our boys here with me anyways...
ok, i was wondering if any of my friends on here that are friends with my wife SIN has the pics of her in her full body fishnet outfit... i am not going to get into details on how she posed and everything on the pics, cause if you have seen them or have them, then you know...if you have them, i need for you to send them to me...for some reason they are not on the comp and they are lost forever.....one of my emails is bynar_tryson@yahoo.com .....thanks :)
