CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Random thoughts"

u know so many days i have wondered if this is all a dream, the love i feel for you and the strength you give me. will i wake up one day and it be gone? or will i have you forever? I used to think that love was a game and people were the pawns. now i feel that love is so real and so valuable that if you really love someone you must give all your love away to that person and have the chance of getting your heartbroken. Well with you I have given all my love, my beliefs and my faith. You are the first man that has ever been able to capture me like this and for that I will be forever faithful to you. You came into the darkest time in my life and you as one man Rudi have filled my days with sunshine and hope. I swear to God that you are all I want out of this life. the opportunity to be able to grow with you, laugh with you, nurse you when your sick and give the world to, thats what I want with you. For better or worse in this lifetime, what ever it may be I want to spend it with you. You are my everything, the perfect man for me. When I am down all I have to do is sit and think about you or say your name and as it comes across my lips the smile is always there. I'm begging you please dont ever hurt me, because all of me is in your hands....