I havent been feeling like doing much lately. I guess i figured that if i just start writing thn something will magically appear from the keyboard that I havent been able to find on my own. I don't really think I'll be able to hold a job, ever. I realized this finally after 2 years of proof, It shouldn't be this way but I don't see the light where I become this hugh impact player on the world seen. Fuck it, even the neighborhood scene, I just want to do what I want to do all the time. If that conflicts with your interests then we can part ways. I have submilinally trained myself for whatever the fuck it is that I do. It's not anyones perfect picture of what life should be, but it seems to work for me. My arrogance is going to be what ultimately forces me to the challenge that I won't be able to overcome. It's just at this point you have to keep fighting. The trampoline that I have under me is made of dental floss and cardboard. I'm 300 feet up and juggling fire, but it's fun. I just wish I could get out of this funk, one last time...
