Witch Doctor's blog: "Words on Paper"

Many days have passed, where I have walked this road of pain.

 

Many nights i've witnessed, along this rocky path, frought with my peril.

 

Then came a moment, so precious so pure, when I noticed you from afar.

 

My heart did flutter, I shivered and quivered, when you walked into my life.

 

Now times have changed, silence no more, I'm pleased to know you so.

 

Thank you so kindly, dear from the heavens, I'll never be lost again.

It started off, so simple so small, like the life of a

tree in early spring. Slowly surely as my heart grows

fonder, the buds of life begin to blossom.

She sits on a knoll, her gaze out upon a blue lake, a

simple view yet so grand. It warms her soul, touches her

face, drenches her in its awe.

I am consumed, yet on edge with uncertaintity, to even

draw myself close, for I so fear to cause some despair, I

hope she will have me, to simply complete me, this is

something i must bear

I take those first steps, with caution, no haste. Softly

approach her small space, and sit down beside her. I turn

my head to look at the view that she sees

I struggle within me, to touch her to hold her, yet

restraint keeps me at bay, like a delicate flower, I fear

to push it away

She turns her head, smiles at me, a warmth washed over me,

drenching me to my very bone, I let go of my concern, push

myself closer, allowing whatever is to come

She reaches out and touches, my butterflies flutter, I

tremble no longer in fear, the want and feelings of need

and desire, swallows me totally whole

 

I woke up this morning, the sun filtering through the blinds, the birds singing outside, in harmony to the chirping insects. I collected myself, rolled here and there, thinking about you, wishing you was here. I stood, stretched, took a deep breath, refreshing uplifting breath. I pictured you, sitting there, eagerly wanting to spend your day with just me. I strode out of the room, and walked onto my front porch, so I could take in the beauty all around me, in its most heavenly glory. Butterflies flickering from flower to flower, hummingbirds feeding from some nectar, bees and bugs meandering around here and there, you smiled at me, bathed in its awe. The fog was sitting on top of the lake, so that it looked like we were up above the clouds themselves, we were in our own little heaven. I took you up, and held you close, kissing you softly on your neck than lips. I smiled at you, caressed your hair, kissed you again, as if the beauty expected it of me. Our hearts pounded as one, our desires and wants became the same steady beat, for we had found what both had wanted for so long, we had found love.

For the Dragon searching the ground below her looking for something that catches her eye. Not really seeking another, but just some answers to some questions in her mind. Soaring this way and that, passing by communities of sorts, gandering answers here and there. The skies are a radiant blue, a river trickles down a distant mountain, she approaches. Behold the Rat who postures himself in such a manner to attract the attention of the mighty dragon. Standing on his riverside, preaching to a bunch of water goats (Capricorns) about a subject that the mighty dragon seeks. Perhaps not all the answers she looks for, but a Rat like no other, one that inspires her, encourages her fires to explode. Now the Postured Rat, occasionally takes flight with his favored Dragon, together seeking to do what is good among the masses. Only this Rat is uncertain in the direction to point, the Rat sees the goal, stands at it, and looks back, seeking to know how he came. The Dragon flew, she sees the land from the birds eye view, perhaps it is she who may know the way.

This is Dedicated to: ~*Huggable*Lovable*Kissable*Jen*~Fu Wife 2 "MikeyX24kt" ~*DSC*~

@ fubar Drenched in darkness, penetrated, lost, unable to see my way out. I look hard, fighting, struggling, longing for my escape. Just than, you reach out and grab me, pulling me towards you, I eagerly allow it to be. The ground beneath me cold, a white blanket of snow, shows itself as I am able to see. Your warm embrace, it but touches me, entices me in the deepest of ways. I am pleased, excited, appreciative to leave the unseen. My toes are cold, my body warm, you hold me close, and whisper softly. You express your love, run your fingers lightly along my broad shoulders, sending tingles throughout my entire being. I rejoice! The cold out of my mind, the darkness no more, we walk slowly to yet another spot. We look out, as one, as a united pair, unto the once known darkness that tortured me so. You pull me close, my heart flutters, skips a beat, I tremble finding myself complete. The worries that once troubled me so, descend into that darkness, lost to me. No longer concerned, nor held back. I allow you to cause me to open myself, excitement in pleasure does fall into me. I thank you, with a sweet tender kiss. We embrace for many moments, hours it seems. We stand there holding each other, caught up in a moment, a moment that never ends. May our hearts and souls be forever entwined as one. Let it just be.

If you go away on this summer day, Then you might as well take the sun away All the birds that flew in the summer sky When our love was new And our hearts were high When the day was young, And the night was long And the moon stood still For the nightbird song If you go away.... But if you stay, I'll make you a day Like no day has been or will be again We'll sail on the sun, we'll ride on the rain We'll talk to the trees that worship the wind And if you go, I'll understand Leave me just enough love to fill up my hand If you go away.... If you go away, as I know you must, There'll be nothing left in the world to trust Just an empty room filled with empty space Like the empty look I see on your face Can I tell you now, as you turn to go I'll be dying slowly 'til your next hello If you go away... But if you stay, I'll make you a night Like no night has been or will be again I'll sail on your smile I'll ride on your touch I'll talk to your eyes, that I love so much But if you go, I won't cry, The good's gone from goodbye

Someone is running around claiming that I am doing things that I in fact not doing at all. And they are telling people who are giving me hell, when I have done nothing to deserve it. If anyone can point me in the direction of my apparent grey hater, I'd certainly appreciate it. Cause I'm growing tired of defending myself against false accusations.

I'm an emotional guy. I would think that would go a long way with a woman, but yet I am still sometimes left completely confused. Why can't people just be upfront and straight with how they feel towards me? Why hide it? Say how you feel, tell me that you want me, or if you dont want me. Don't leave me wondering. Its selfish, and very piggish of you. Don't leave me hanging. If I ask for some assurances, do I not deserve them? Have I done some great evil in the past, and now I am being tested for it? Why must I live down the wrongs done by other men? I AM NOT THEM!!! Get over it! Yet, I am forced to except others at face value, and trust they aren't fucking with my emotions. Yea, so I got a big heart, don't give you the fucking right to step on it. Be completely honest with me. Don't beat around the bush, don't give me some fucking story about wooo is me, this happened to me, and so now I have to go extra careful with others. I am who I am. I have nothing to hide, nor have I ever tried to hide anything. What do you need, a damn resume? Want some fucking personal references on who I am, and what I am about? Someone wouldn't have anything to do with me one time, simply because I lacked a fucking salute pic, so I got one. Now I am their friend. So whats that tell me about the people I know who wont do the same thing? How do I know your not some old man or lady, simply fucking with me? I've been fucked with before by TONS of people who have claimed to be something that they are not. Give me assurances. Ease my doubt. Stop waiting. If I am worth anything to you, you'd jump on that opportunity, or I'm gone. I'm too old to wait for someone to make up their mind about what they want, or how they feel about someone. Or rather they think they can trust them. Well ...... fuck ya, I trust everyone until given a reason not too. And I'm done with excuses.. HERE I AM IN ALL MY GLORY! TAKE ME OR NOT there's your question...

I loose myself in thought, Pondering what to say, I tremble yet contain, I hide yet I remain. Looking beyond what sits right here, A thought does yet form, Gestures of kindness and affection, Would likely be whats appreciated. I seek to show respect, Yet want them to understand, That deep inside my moral fiber, Lies a man who seeks appreciation. With the love that can give, I venture forth to you, Your acceptance I so seek, Love and hope I do wish. So love me forever please, Hold me in your arms, Care greatly for my heart, Let no one keep you from this charge.

A path opens before you, you have come this far, but what next. Do you go towards the cliffs, the door that falls a hundred feet? Or do you turn back, and seek a different route. So you choose, you venture forward.... The fall approaches, the cold brisk wind cuts through you. The colors of the trees do change, from greens to yellows and reds. The forest yet growing colder, has life still. It calls to you, chills you, yet appeases you. Birds chirp in the distance, a pair of chipmunks scamper among some already fallen leaves. You look up and the sky grows gray. One is lost, chilled, uncertain any direction. Straining to hear, a waterfall is heard, a sight one must behold. You venture forward more....you move towards the sound of water trickling down a rock, you move towards that door. The trees do thin out, and rocks beneath your feet become more abundant. It is here a cliff opens before you. You step out on to it, and a view you do see, as far as the eye can see. Multitudes of color, a sheer drop that would scare even the boldest. A waterfall seen in the distance, deer feeding in its pool beneath. You smile to yourself, the path has led you to beauty, you can now return back that the way you came, for your journey has been fruitful.