we started with a goodbye but i couldn't let you go with never knowin you so we started talkin on the phone i got scared to open up and we didnt talk so much my falt i know, you where just the kind of guy i wouldn't have wanted to loose then i feel on hard times and we couldn't talk for a while i felt the loss of a loved one's life as though it where my own life lost when i came around and needed you most yer kind heart was no longer there for me maybe you didn't know but i did fall for you that's what scared me so much how fast it had happened cuz of the last man i opened myself to hurt me more then i could have ever thought possible i knew you where not the same but i was just scared i wasn't runnin away from you or whatever it was you thought but then you become a good friend even when you where not around readin your poems helped me to move past my pain and a few kind words from time to time that you gave helped me to open up and now that i am open for the world to see i feel so vulnerable and afraid but you taught me to live again even if you didn't know it. Now I'm goin through a tough time and instead of runnin i turn to find you so i can get through it, just to find you have turned yer back on me dropped from yer life as though i where nothin to you nothing at all I'm hurtin so much I'm so afraid i don't know what way is up or what way is down i need yer heart yer sweet words but but you give none, i loved you, you may not have known but i did in my own way I know i suck at showin it but i did and still do love you i just want to know why? why now would you turn yer back to me? now that i am open for all the world to see now that you can know me the me inside the scared and week me not just the diva i show to most but the woman that is me why? why would you do this to me now that i need you most in my life if for nothin then just a friend to lean on when I'm at my lowest point?.
p.s. even though i am hurtin now and now you are part of that pain i still love you and if at anytime you ever want to talk I'm here for you and always will be, my sweet poet.
