i really don't know why i try anymore...everything i put effort into, i will to work out, the things that make me happy...they all fall to shit...everything around me falls to shit...i just cant deal with it anymore...and so very few people actually show me support..to those i'm extremely greatful...to the rest of you, rot, thats all i can say to u...i hope you rot...
and this headache bullshit...its so constant...its...ugh...my stomach is going to end up eating itself with all the pain pills i'm putting in it...and i absolutely HATE taking any kinds of meds...but this is so bad i have to...
i need to get away...i need to not have to worry about or talk to or deal with anyone/anything that i currently know...i just need something different...something new and exciting and relaxing all at once...blah...
i'm done
